Just got back home from a movie night at church. We watched a movie called "Courageous". I don't even know how to begin describing it. But basically long things short, it was super duper emotional, and touched me in more ways than one. The plot and storyline isn't the reason for my post tonight though. Instead, I want to share with you a recommitment I want to make with God.
The movie talked a lot about relationships, and especially the ones between guys and girls, and the ones between fathers and their children. Without going into much detail, the recommitment I want to make to God is to put him first above my relationships, particularly in regards to my romantic life. Lately, my mind has been shifting between the interests of a few guys, and it's just been a whirlwind of hormones and emotions. I want that desire to be loved by someone, but I know that deep down, true love can only come from God alone. And I also know that me trying to go after non-Christian guys doesn't work out. I've seen it time and time again in my own life, so I know that it's truth. As much as I'm willing to twist my mind into thinking that it will work out, it just simply won't. I know putting God first is a lot easier said than done, but I really want it, and I want Him to be my number one. Not second or third, or even #1.5. Just number one. And if that means no relationships until after high school, I am willing to do that, for God, and God alone. I just really need to set my focus straight on Him, or else I know I will stray away once I enter university. I know I don't want that, and I know that many church leaders are afraid of that happening to their grade 12s too. I don't want to let them down, but most importantly, I don't want to let myself and God down. So this recommitment is truth in its entirely, and I want to devote my grade 12 year to following it. Amen.
