It's been a long time since I've written and it's been one heck of a rollercoaster ride ever since.
The last few weeks have been super busy, with fashion shows, extra rehearsals, dance shows, job interviews, midterms, extra lessons, concerts, fundraising for my mission trip, social gatherings, and everything else in between. Though everything was quite enjoyable, it's nice to be able to live life a little on the calmer side this week now that all my shows are over for the year.
A few weeks ago was the first time I was ever involved in a fashion show ever in my life, and I must say, it was a very cool experience. Although I'll never understand why the models don't smile when they're strutting their stuff on stage, it was definitely very fascinating to see the behind-the-scenes of their rehearsal process. I wasn't a model in the show but a dancer, as they had dance pieces in between the catwalks to give the models time to change. The group of girls I danced with were all elite, advanced dancers who have had many years of ballet training. Some even come from full-time, prestigious, dance boarding schools. It was nice to be able to dance with people who were not only at my level, but even way beyond me, and to be able to learn from others in a competitive yet friendly environment. It was so encouraging to see everyone wanting to do their best, while wanting to be a part of a team at the same time. We even had "dancer dinners" together, which were super cute.
I owe a huge part of my year to QDC (Queen's Dance Club), for making my first year at Queen's so enjoyable and memorable. I've definitely met a lot of talented dancers through all my classes, and the teachers and staff are just second to none. Everyone is so supportive of one another through everything from quick changes backstage to planning class thank you gifts for our teachers to planning surprise socials and birthday parties, it just really feels like family; a home away from home. I've applied to be on staff with QDC next year as a ballet teacher, so fingers crossed that I'll get hired and be able to join their amazing team!
I've applied for quite a few jobs on campus next year, but it's always easy to get carried away with how much I commit myself too. My accountability partner from P2C, a second year commerce student who's on exchange at Queen's from France, reminded me that overcommitting is a sin. I definitely won't take on all my job positions in the unlikely event that I land all my jobs, but at the same time, I do need to start making some money to lift some of the burden my parents have for having to continually pay my school bills. It's a tough decision for sure.
I feel like in the midst of my busy month, I've left God off to the side a bit. Spending time with Him hasn't really been priority, and I know that needs to change. Skimming through my devos just doesn't cut it, as I'm not really reflecting on what I'm reading, but simply just acknowledging it. My attendance at P2C has been faltering these past few weeks too, and though I know that my relationship with God isn't measured by how many fellowship events I attend, I can't help but feel disconnected from my fellowship lately. We have our fellowship's annual semi-formal tonight, so hopefully that will help bridge some gaps, if temporarily, at least.
