Meant to write yesterday, but got too preoccupied with stuff.
Just came home from vocals. It was killer today. Three hours of choir after school plus one hour during lunch means a total of 4 hours of singing today. And we were only working on our OVF songs too. Because OVF is on Thursday, which is two days away. Gah. I've never had rehearsal from 3:30-6:45 before. It was so intense. We weren't super good either though, even after those three hours. I guess because besides concert choir, there were ladies groups and chamber choir as well, so a lot of groups with a lot of pieces and not enough time to practice. And now, I'm completely energy drained again. I think I'm gonna go zzz for a bit after this post. Practicing again after my zzz though, because we need to hand in practice logs soon. Man. Sad life.
I'm very happy about one thing though, the fact that God answers prayers. I was able to talk to the friend I've been mentioning in my posts recently last night, and we were able to discuss family life, home situations, God's plans for us, and the people He wants us to hang out with. I never got to reviewing the Gospel with her, but our talk was so genuine and God-centred that it was just sooo amazing. PTL for that :D
Another praise item is that my tailbone is getting better. I can walk down the stairs without it hurting at all now. Up the stairs, if it's more than one flight, it still hurts because it puts pressure on my tailbone, but it's already doing a lot better. And in dance, I can do most of the stuff now, including rolldowns. The only thing i can't really do still are rolls on the floor. But that's okay, because rolls are literally on your tailbone. So it's expected that it will still hurt to do rolls for a few more days.
I'm really craving instant noodles and sushi right now. Random, I know, but I'm pretty hungry too. Instant noodles because I ate instant rice for lunch, so I figured I might as well finish the combo with instant noodles too. Sushi because last night I saw a sushi-making show on TV and I got so hungry. The image hasn't been able to leave my mind since. LOL. Instead though, I will resort to cookies, because it is the only thing I have on hand to eat right now. Better than no food I guess.
That's it for today. I feel the need to snack and then snooze now. Write again tomorrow!
2.28.2012
2.27.2012
02.26.12
Sunday. Already. Wow.
Business test tomorrow. Not great. It's my weakest subject right now. It's like one of those courses where there's so much common sense involved that you don't know when something is right or wrong anymore. Gah.
Also made some decisions today.
1) Not going to semi. Going to music banquet later instead. Make a whole pro/con chart thing, and weighed the pro/cons of each choice. Chose music banquet in the end.
2) I really need to get myself a vocal teacher soon. If I even want to stand a chance in studying vocals/music education in university. I'll be auditioning for piano too, but seriously, I'd much prefer vocals over piano. Need to get myself up to grade 8 RCM vocals over the next year though. That's tough. But I'm willing to work for it. What's tougher is whether my parents will let me. They're letting me audition for vocals in uni, but I don't know if they'd be willing to pay for more lessons. Need to make a contact/deal with them at least for summer lessons. Oh boy, this is going to be tough.
The friend who I wrote about in my post yesterday. Guess what. Her grandmother died today. More sad news to cause more trauma into her already seemingly messed up life. Great. But she admires her grandmother, and seems to thank her for being such an inspiring Christian. Well at least that's good. But with so much admiration probably is going to come a time of grief. Wow. So many situations in her life piling up one at a time. More prayer is needed again, I guess.
Oops sidetracked again. Studying is very hard. It requires a lot of concentration...which I don't have. The ADD-ness is kicking in again. Ahahaa. I should finish reviewing and go to bed. I guess that means I'll have to finish off my CE tomorrow. Dang. Really need to be more productive, this is horrible.
Business test tomorrow. Not great. It's my weakest subject right now. It's like one of those courses where there's so much common sense involved that you don't know when something is right or wrong anymore. Gah.
Also made some decisions today.
1) Not going to semi. Going to music banquet later instead. Make a whole pro/con chart thing, and weighed the pro/cons of each choice. Chose music banquet in the end.
2) I really need to get myself a vocal teacher soon. If I even want to stand a chance in studying vocals/music education in university. I'll be auditioning for piano too, but seriously, I'd much prefer vocals over piano. Need to get myself up to grade 8 RCM vocals over the next year though. That's tough. But I'm willing to work for it. What's tougher is whether my parents will let me. They're letting me audition for vocals in uni, but I don't know if they'd be willing to pay for more lessons. Need to make a contact/deal with them at least for summer lessons. Oh boy, this is going to be tough.
The friend who I wrote about in my post yesterday. Guess what. Her grandmother died today. More sad news to cause more trauma into her already seemingly messed up life. Great. But she admires her grandmother, and seems to thank her for being such an inspiring Christian. Well at least that's good. But with so much admiration probably is going to come a time of grief. Wow. So many situations in her life piling up one at a time. More prayer is needed again, I guess.
Oops sidetracked again. Studying is very hard. It requires a lot of concentration...which I don't have. The ADD-ness is kicking in again. Ahahaa. I should finish reviewing and go to bed. I guess that means I'll have to finish off my CE tomorrow. Dang. Really need to be more productive, this is horrible.
2.25.2012
02.25.12
my newsfeed is once again filled with my cousin's posts. great. tumblr's so addicting, eh cuz?
LOL get to work soon (:
life has been rather confusing lately. loads to update about, but i'll keep it down to a few points.
fell down the stairs on wednesday and injured my tailbone. and to make it worse, it was my garage stairs. they're made of concrete, so it was a hard fall. but oh well. can't change the past. hurts to bend down and do certain movements now, but time will heal that. on the bright side, i get to use the elevator key at school now (:
again. it's like an annual thing, an injury and elevator privileges. last year it was my ankle, this year it's my tailbone. wonder what it'll be next year?
i'm more concerned about one of my friends now more than anything. won't say too much, but basically her parents are going through a divorce right now, but the whole family's christian. the parents are already separated (live under different roofs), but they haven't signed an official divorce paper or anything yet. the mom's into drugs and drinking, and the dad is seeing another woman. the weird part is that this friend wants the divorce to happen, cuz she dislikes her mom and likes the woman her dad is seeing. so she wants the divorce to happen, and then to move in with her dad. doesn't something just seem a bit...wrong or weird about that? but at the same time, i'm not sure what i can really do to help her. one of my church friends suggested going through the gospel with her again, and i think that will help, but i'm not really sure on how to go about doing that. prayer to start with i guess.
very distracted tonight. can't finish this post without focussing and turning to other things. need to MiM soon too. gah. so much to do. lots of projects and tests to study for this weekend too.
currently also debating on what to do with my summer. stuck between the explore program and doing summer school co-op. making a chart of pros and cons for each right now. making it with a friend actually, cuz she insisted it'd help. hopefully it does.
don't feel like writing anymore. a little energy drained and fajsdlfkjdslf. great word to describe how i'm feeling eh? LOL. okay. toodles.
LOL get to work soon (:
life has been rather confusing lately. loads to update about, but i'll keep it down to a few points.
fell down the stairs on wednesday and injured my tailbone. and to make it worse, it was my garage stairs. they're made of concrete, so it was a hard fall. but oh well. can't change the past. hurts to bend down and do certain movements now, but time will heal that. on the bright side, i get to use the elevator key at school now (:
again. it's like an annual thing, an injury and elevator privileges. last year it was my ankle, this year it's my tailbone. wonder what it'll be next year?
i'm more concerned about one of my friends now more than anything. won't say too much, but basically her parents are going through a divorce right now, but the whole family's christian. the parents are already separated (live under different roofs), but they haven't signed an official divorce paper or anything yet. the mom's into drugs and drinking, and the dad is seeing another woman. the weird part is that this friend wants the divorce to happen, cuz she dislikes her mom and likes the woman her dad is seeing. so she wants the divorce to happen, and then to move in with her dad. doesn't something just seem a bit...wrong or weird about that? but at the same time, i'm not sure what i can really do to help her. one of my church friends suggested going through the gospel with her again, and i think that will help, but i'm not really sure on how to go about doing that. prayer to start with i guess.
very distracted tonight. can't finish this post without focussing and turning to other things. need to MiM soon too. gah. so much to do. lots of projects and tests to study for this weekend too.
currently also debating on what to do with my summer. stuck between the explore program and doing summer school co-op. making a chart of pros and cons for each right now. making it with a friend actually, cuz she insisted it'd help. hopefully it does.
don't feel like writing anymore. a little energy drained and fajsdlfkjdslf. great word to describe how i'm feeling eh? LOL. okay. toodles.
2.22.2012
02.22.12
It's Wednesday.
First day of lent. Giving up texting this year. So no texting for me until Easter. This shall be interesting.
I'm anticipating that I will be able to do it, but it'll be really hard, and I'll have to resist a lot of temptation along the way.
School was okay today. Lunch was interesting...cuz most of the 10s were on a french field trip (Franco Fete), so there were so much fewer people than usual. It was nice for a change though. Quieter. And since I had full lunch today, I even managed to get some studying done. That was good. I felt accomplished.
Practicing piano right now. Or...will be as soon as I'm done typing. Gah the songs are so hard nowadays. On the bright side though, I'm applying for a job at my music school as practice coach. Pretty must a guaranteed job if you submit your application, which I'll be handing it tonight. Minimum wage, but better than nothing. And it'd look better on a resume than say McDonalds or Menchies or something. So yeah. Excited for that.
That's all I'm gonna write for now. Need to get back to work. Toodles!
First day of lent. Giving up texting this year. So no texting for me until Easter. This shall be interesting.
I'm anticipating that I will be able to do it, but it'll be really hard, and I'll have to resist a lot of temptation along the way.
School was okay today. Lunch was interesting...cuz most of the 10s were on a french field trip (Franco Fete), so there were so much fewer people than usual. It was nice for a change though. Quieter. And since I had full lunch today, I even managed to get some studying done. That was good. I felt accomplished.
Practicing piano right now. Or...will be as soon as I'm done typing. Gah the songs are so hard nowadays. On the bright side though, I'm applying for a job at my music school as practice coach. Pretty must a guaranteed job if you submit your application, which I'll be handing it tonight. Minimum wage, but better than nothing. And it'd look better on a resume than say McDonalds or Menchies or something. So yeah. Excited for that.
That's all I'm gonna write for now. Need to get back to work. Toodles!
2.19.2012
02.19.12
Alright, it's about time I start posting again. I don't care if my retreat rant post isn't done yet, I can always finish that some other time.
Today was a topsy-turvy day to say the least.
Woke up super early this morning because I had to be at church by 8:45 to practice for Driven. Song set went well though, so that was good. Mic problems though. AV seriously needs to get their act together, because the vocalists could barely even be heard the entire way through. Gah.
Lunch was nice. Went to the food court and bumped into a few unexpected friends, and had a nice chat. Good to get together with people whom you haven't seen in a while. Went grocery shopping after that, which was pretty fun. Father and daughter bonding time. Yeee. And bought more cookie dough and frozen fruit so that I can make more cookies and smoothies tomorrow. Yuuumm stuff.
Spent the rest of the afternoon/evening at my cousin's house. Huge friend gathering, which was pretty fun. We played Just Dance 3, just like we always do, and watched a movie. Another horror movie, as usual. This time it was called Pulse. I thought it was such a great movie. And not scary to the point where I'd get nightmares tonight, but decently scary. Good movie (y).
Need to work on my business assignment now. I must submit it online to my teacher through Moodle before midnight, or else I'm toast. I'm pretty much done, I just need to proofread it now, but knowing me, I can procrastinate in every way imaginable, so I'd better stop blogging and finish that editting.
Toodles!
Today was a topsy-turvy day to say the least.
Woke up super early this morning because I had to be at church by 8:45 to practice for Driven. Song set went well though, so that was good. Mic problems though. AV seriously needs to get their act together, because the vocalists could barely even be heard the entire way through. Gah.
Lunch was nice. Went to the food court and bumped into a few unexpected friends, and had a nice chat. Good to get together with people whom you haven't seen in a while. Went grocery shopping after that, which was pretty fun. Father and daughter bonding time. Yeee. And bought more cookie dough and frozen fruit so that I can make more cookies and smoothies tomorrow. Yuuumm stuff.
Spent the rest of the afternoon/evening at my cousin's house. Huge friend gathering, which was pretty fun. We played Just Dance 3, just like we always do, and watched a movie. Another horror movie, as usual. This time it was called Pulse. I thought it was such a great movie. And not scary to the point where I'd get nightmares tonight, but decently scary. Good movie (y).
Need to work on my business assignment now. I must submit it online to my teacher through Moodle before midnight, or else I'm toast. I'm pretty much done, I just need to proofread it now, but knowing me, I can procrastinate in every way imaginable, so I'd better stop blogging and finish that editting.
Toodles!
2.02.2012
02.02.12
Oops I accidentally forgot to post yesterday. Oh well.
Today was a bit of a disappointment. It's like, whatever I do is never enough for them. I come home with an 86 average and I get told it's horrible because it's my arts courses plus English that's pulling up my mark. Well guess what? It's friggin super duper hard to get above 90 on an English course okay? And the fact that I decided to dedicate my time to that subject of all things shows that I care about it and want the mark. So stop complaining about some of my other marks that aren't as high. At least they're all still above an 80. Geez.
Besides marks and school, the tension in my family is building up all over again. Ugh. For some, that may mean the need for counselling. For me, it means suck it up because we've tried counselling in the past and it doesn't work. Or at least the person who counselled us didn't help change anything. I figured God would be the best counsellor for this type of stuff anyway. So, I'll just toss everything over to Him.
On the bright side, I had a productive practice with my retreat worship team today. We were able to run through all our sets, assign roles and whatnot. Good bonding time, and jamming time too. I feel excited for retreat, yet so energy drained as well. At least the excitement is a good thing though. It might also be a good getaway from my chaotic family life for a few days. Seems a bit mean for me to think of it that way, but I think everyone just needs time to calm down away from each other.
I really need to give God some time to handle everything in my life. I appreciate when people ask me how I'm doing, but honestly, it's one thing to blog and rant about your life, and another to have people around you everyday asking if the situation's changed. It's not like miracles happen on a daily basis in my life, okay? I'm trusting in God and I know it's gonna take time, so just ask me periodically. Or else it gets annoying. And I'll seem rude to you. Which is not good for the both of us.
I think I'm gonna go snooze for a bit now. My emotions are playing around with my brain today. Stupid things that don't go together. Laters.
Today was a bit of a disappointment. It's like, whatever I do is never enough for them. I come home with an 86 average and I get told it's horrible because it's my arts courses plus English that's pulling up my mark. Well guess what? It's friggin super duper hard to get above 90 on an English course okay? And the fact that I decided to dedicate my time to that subject of all things shows that I care about it and want the mark. So stop complaining about some of my other marks that aren't as high. At least they're all still above an 80. Geez.
Besides marks and school, the tension in my family is building up all over again. Ugh. For some, that may mean the need for counselling. For me, it means suck it up because we've tried counselling in the past and it doesn't work. Or at least the person who counselled us didn't help change anything. I figured God would be the best counsellor for this type of stuff anyway. So, I'll just toss everything over to Him.
On the bright side, I had a productive practice with my retreat worship team today. We were able to run through all our sets, assign roles and whatnot. Good bonding time, and jamming time too. I feel excited for retreat, yet so energy drained as well. At least the excitement is a good thing though. It might also be a good getaway from my chaotic family life for a few days. Seems a bit mean for me to think of it that way, but I think everyone just needs time to calm down away from each other.
I really need to give God some time to handle everything in my life. I appreciate when people ask me how I'm doing, but honestly, it's one thing to blog and rant about your life, and another to have people around you everyday asking if the situation's changed. It's not like miracles happen on a daily basis in my life, okay? I'm trusting in God and I know it's gonna take time, so just ask me periodically. Or else it gets annoying. And I'll seem rude to you. Which is not good for the both of us.
I think I'm gonna go snooze for a bit now. My emotions are playing around with my brain today. Stupid things that don't go together. Laters.
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