03.08.12

My parents are asjflkajsdklf-ing again. Meaning fighting. Great. Just great.
About like everything too over the past few days. Finances, money, me, my brother, attitudes and perspectives, teaching methods, dinner times and how fast someone can cook, like seriously EVERYTHING. Gosh. When will this stop?

Friends know about it. I complain about it the instant it happens. I don't mean to bug them with it and clog their brains with more problems, but, it's just so overwhelming. And to make things worse, cousin's parents are fighting too. It's like the whole cycle is starting again. Goes up, and down and stays better for a while, and then rises again. What a nightmare.

Things from yesterday seem so distant right now, yes it's still consciously on my mind so much. Feeling like an invisible. I walked away from my normal friend group today, because I just couldn't keep my patience levels at norm, and I was afraid that if I stayed any longer, I would burst and explode at them. So instead, I went to find some grade 11s and I spent the remainder of lunch with them instead. They were very comforting and accepting, and we were just able to joke around. That was really really nice (: That's what friends are supposed to do anyway, right?

I'm not feeling well today actually. Like physically. I feel sick. Probably ate something gross during lunch today that made me feel weird. Stomach's been hurting on and off all day, and I got my first migraine of the month today as well. Just great. A lot of other people are sick though. Please pray for one of my friends, literally right after our quiz in class today, she just collapsed and put her head down for the rest of the period. She was really not feeling well, but she was kind of forcing herself to stay in class, and in band after school too, because she's a really good student and doesn't want to like, skip class you know? Really hope she feels better soon, kind of sucks having to see others sick and in so much pain, for a lack of a better word.

I'm out all day tomorrow, all for church things. Waking early too. One of my parents is okay with it, the other is really against it. Against me going out, even for church in general. Well, as with all things, it's hard to get both of my parents to have the same mindset, but I guess just pray that God will speak through me to them and that they'll hopefully be able to see that I'm really trying to glorify God through all that I'm doing?

I'm tired. And I should probably sleep soon, because I'm sick too. Okay I guess that's all I'll write for today. I hope tomorrow will bring about a better day (: Toodles.