Again, it's been a while since I've posted. But oh well, better late than never right?
Daddy brought home 3 fish today to add to our fishtank. They're super tiny and absolutely adorable. All three of them look the same, so I named them Thing 1, Thing 2, and Thing 3. Creative of me, eh?
On the flipside of things, may I ask for you to help me pray for the friend that I am going to share her story about below?
So this friend of mine, let's name her X, has been a close friend of mine for almost a year now. Some time last week, she told me a "deep dark secret" of hers, whom she has told very few people. Without revealing much, basically it was an eating disorder of sorts, which she wanted me to keep her accountable to. Trying to stop isn't always easy, and I can definitely attest to that with the problems I've faced in my past with self-harm. Either way, I just want to be there for her, and give her a sense of guidance (she has to tell me whenever she falls into a trap), and a sense of conviction so that the unhealthy habits slowly lessen and fade over time.
I guess, just pray for strength for her to overcome this disorder and be stronger than all of this, and to be more secure in her self-esteem and self-image. As for me, just pray that I'll be a supportive and helping friend who is there to listen and guide her along the path which God has instilled for her to follow (yes, she's a Christian too).
It's getting late, so I think that'll be it for today. Toodles!
11.18.2012
10.10.2012
10.10.12
Woah, has it almost been a month since I last posted already?
Well, that was fast.
Found some time to post today because I'm waiting for a late night drink. Nothing sketchy about it, just milkshake and the like. No need to worry.
I've come to realize today that the simplest things in life can make someone the happiest. The highlight of my day today was playing Tic Tac Toe with a special needs kid at my school. See how simple that was? And tomorrow, we're set up to play a huge game of monopoly during lunch. Simple friendships that last a lifetime, love it.
School's getting rather hectic. Hating English class like crazy right now, and math is not easy, even though they teacher is really encouraging and nice. Classical civilizations turned out to be anything but a jokes course this semester. We're currently reading the Iliad (Homer) and doing a huge analysis presentation on it. Not much fun at all, if you ask me. But I guess despite everything, God's still seeing me through, and my lunch breaks with the sped kids are just absolutely amazing.
Aside from school, life's been a little chaotic too. There's just been so many thoughts going around in my mind, and it's like a huge jumble of....I don't even know how to describe it. I get tired really easily these days now too, which is okay I guess, because it's probably my body's way of telling me I need more rest. Sleeping at 12 is no longer an option anymore, because I start feeling groggy at around 9 or 10. More sleep is always a good thing though, can't deny that.
Retreat planning is well under way, and I'm super excited to unravel everything towards the fellowship slowly. Slowly. Keyword there, or else people are gonna get overwhelmed. But since we are going to a ranch and everything this year (yes, horses!), it just adds to my excitement that much more. Like retreat right next to horses; doesn't get much better than that!
How did today's post get so long already? I guess I should stop, and consider going to bed now too.
Toodles!
Well, that was fast.
Found some time to post today because I'm waiting for a late night drink. Nothing sketchy about it, just milkshake and the like. No need to worry.
I've come to realize today that the simplest things in life can make someone the happiest. The highlight of my day today was playing Tic Tac Toe with a special needs kid at my school. See how simple that was? And tomorrow, we're set up to play a huge game of monopoly during lunch. Simple friendships that last a lifetime, love it.
School's getting rather hectic. Hating English class like crazy right now, and math is not easy, even though they teacher is really encouraging and nice. Classical civilizations turned out to be anything but a jokes course this semester. We're currently reading the Iliad (Homer) and doing a huge analysis presentation on it. Not much fun at all, if you ask me. But I guess despite everything, God's still seeing me through, and my lunch breaks with the sped kids are just absolutely amazing.
Aside from school, life's been a little chaotic too. There's just been so many thoughts going around in my mind, and it's like a huge jumble of....I don't even know how to describe it. I get tired really easily these days now too, which is okay I guess, because it's probably my body's way of telling me I need more rest. Sleeping at 12 is no longer an option anymore, because I start feeling groggy at around 9 or 10. More sleep is always a good thing though, can't deny that.
Retreat planning is well under way, and I'm super excited to unravel everything towards the fellowship slowly. Slowly. Keyword there, or else people are gonna get overwhelmed. But since we are going to a ranch and everything this year (yes, horses!), it just adds to my excitement that much more. Like retreat right next to horses; doesn't get much better than that!
How did today's post get so long already? I guess I should stop, and consider going to bed now too.
Toodles!
9.20.2012
09.20.12- Tribute to Ollie
You'll notice that today's post has a title other than the date. Today's post is especially for Ollie, my beloved hamster, who peacefully passed away today in her sleep after almost a week of suffering. For today's post, I have decided to write a letter to Ollie as a tribute to her, so here goes.
Dear Ollie,
You hold a very special place in my heart. Though you weren't my first hamster, you were definitely the best hamster I'll ever have. You were a friend, a companion, a comforter, a listener; you were everything to me. Waking up everyday to see you greet me during breakfast at the front door of your cage always made me so happy. Sometimes, you'd even be hanging upside down from your cage bars like a little koala. That was the cutest. Whatever you did, you'd be that little spark that would help brighten my day.
I particularly remember that day when I decided to build you a lego fort. I remember you loved it so much, and became so busy trying to climb over all the colourful blocks. It was such a mission to keep you in that fort! And of course, I took lots of pictures for you that day too, one of which I used for my post today. You were only nine months old back then, and look at you now, it's been more than two years. A dwarf hamster's only supposed to live a year, or two years max, but you defied the odds and almost lived three! You celebrated two birthdays with me, and watched me the moment I got into high school right until grade 12. You were always there when I needed someone to talk to late at night.
You were such a fighter too. I remember the time when you got sick, and I was so scared you would pass away. But you fought and fought, and turned from weak to strong and conquered all odds. I had never seen a hamster do that ever in my life. And you even ended up living another 1.5 years. Talk about being a warrior!
I know that your time has come to leave this earth and that God has chosen you to be his special little angel in heaven. In fact, you'll be God's little hamster angel, isn't that cute? At least I know that one day, I'll see you again in heaven and that we'll be together again. That's something to look forward to isn't it?
To be honest, I don't think I've ever cried over the death of a pet before, so the fact that I'm crying over losing you Ollie, definitely means you have a special place in my heart. You were a great friend to me, more than I could ever ask more, and I wish that I took better care of you back then. I'll miss you a lot. <3 All the best Ollie, God Bless!
Love your beloved owner and friend,
Ange <3
R.I.P Ollie; September 20, 2012. <3
9.14.2012
09.14.12.
Gorgeous eh? It's from my dance photoshoot today at the park. Basically, the photography students partnered up with the dancers and we had a field trip to a park downtown to do a photoshoot. It was a lot of fun posing and all, and a great experience too. And of course, each time you get a chance to do a photoshoot, you get better at posing too. Some of the girls in my class are so photogenic because they've had so much experience with it. The above is just a sampler of the rest of the shots we took today, but I'll have to wait for the rest to come out before I get to order them and then upload them onto social media sites and such. This one was taken for me on my own camera, so I'm okay.
Aside from that, this week has been pretty good, despite my lack of time to do devos and such. I should really get on that, because as I have been telling others, if you want to spend time with God, you will find time and make time for Him.
I'm excited for fellowship tonight, because it's Team Games night! I need to remember to get my waiver forms signed for tonight too. Don't want to be stuck inside when all the other groups are going out for cell group night! I hope the retreat centres reply soon...it's been a few days since I've sent them an email. Fingers crossed for that, as we need to start planning for retreat soon even though it's only September.
Sunday looks like it's going to be a good day. I have all my arts class (dance, piano) that day, and I also have to teach a dance class as well. That'll be fun, because although I've taught those kids before, this is the first year I'm making them do an acro dance, and more than one dance as well. We're going to a senior's home to perform in November, so I'm really excited! Hopefully things will all go well during practice and turn out right.
Migraines have been on and off for the past few days, but I think it's been better today. Maybe it's Friday and my mentality's different, maybe not, I'm not sure. But feeling better is always a good thing, because it means I can get more done after school and be more productive.
Today's post is so long, ahhh. I think I'll stop typing now. Toodles!
9.11.2012
09.11.12
I realize today's 9/11. If you're reading this post, please stop and take a moment to pray for the people impacted by the 9/11 incident twelve years ago. Pray for those who are survivors but broken inside still, and for those who have lost family or friends in the incident.So, go pray now.
Thanks, I really do appreciate it, and I'm sure the people you just prayed for did too.
Updates. My new laptop finally came, and everything's all nice and set up now. It feels so good to be typing on this keyboard...feels almost like I'm typing on a Mac, even though I'm not. I like how it has built in webcam too, so that I don't have to go through the hassle of connecting one to the USB port in my computer anymore.
The migraines have been coming back lately. It's been...my 3rd day of migraine-ing now? It sucks because it's a kind of throbbing pain, which hurts but still allows me to do my daily tasks (e.g. homework, practice piano, dance), to an extent. Please pray for me, because the meds haven't really been working either. The thing is too, that the migraines come on and off...and so usually I get a few hours a day where my head doesn't hurt at all. Strange eh? I'm gonna go for a nap now too after this post, and see if that helps.
God has been giving me opportunities to talk about Him at school too. Just today, during lunch, I was sitting with a new girl at my church, along with another Christian girl, and a Muslim one. The Muslim girl didn't really believe in what her religion/culture made her believe though, which was strange, so we kind of talked about that for a bit, and also suggested the idea of coming to fellowship on Friday night just to check it out and see how it's different and stuff. She said she'll get back to us after asking her parents, but I have hope, and I'll be praying too! Fingers crossed!
Alright, I think this post is as long as it needs to be for today. Post again soon!
Thanks, I really do appreciate it, and I'm sure the people you just prayed for did too.
Updates. My new laptop finally came, and everything's all nice and set up now. It feels so good to be typing on this keyboard...feels almost like I'm typing on a Mac, even though I'm not. I like how it has built in webcam too, so that I don't have to go through the hassle of connecting one to the USB port in my computer anymore.
The migraines have been coming back lately. It's been...my 3rd day of migraine-ing now? It sucks because it's a kind of throbbing pain, which hurts but still allows me to do my daily tasks (e.g. homework, practice piano, dance), to an extent. Please pray for me, because the meds haven't really been working either. The thing is too, that the migraines come on and off...and so usually I get a few hours a day where my head doesn't hurt at all. Strange eh? I'm gonna go for a nap now too after this post, and see if that helps.
God has been giving me opportunities to talk about Him at school too. Just today, during lunch, I was sitting with a new girl at my church, along with another Christian girl, and a Muslim one. The Muslim girl didn't really believe in what her religion/culture made her believe though, which was strange, so we kind of talked about that for a bit, and also suggested the idea of coming to fellowship on Friday night just to check it out and see how it's different and stuff. She said she'll get back to us after asking her parents, but I have hope, and I'll be praying too! Fingers crossed!
Alright, I think this post is as long as it needs to be for today. Post again soon!
9.06.2012
09.06.12
Oh hello September, I didn't know you came that quickly.
Well, school is okay for now. I mean, homework is moderate, so it's manageable and all. Schedule is iffy, so hopefully I'll get a trip to guidance tomorrow. Praying for a good guidance counsellor too. Really need it, because I want to add a course and whether I get that course or not really matters right now. At least my teachers are nice this semester, which is good. Too bad good teachers doesn't necessarily mean good schedule. Sigh.
Tomorrow is Niner Night at felly! I'm so excited, but again, I think we overdid it a bit. Hope we won't scare the nines away, oh dear. Looking forward to my Menchies date tomorrow after school, as well as my DG meeting, which we've now named ourselves GAG (Girls after God) ! Talk about a weird name, don't you think?
Preliminary retreat planning has already started. I can't believe everything's coming at me so quickly, this is crazy! But I do feel like this is in God's plan and so He I should be glorifying him while doing all this. I'm actually really excited for this year's retreat too, because we have a campsite established rather early this year so hopefully we'll be able to plan more things and just hype up the place even more! Hyping together with the Holy Spirit of course though, because ultimately, that's what breaks and changes people.
Another headache is on its way. It seems to be a typical occurrence every night now. I guess that means I should stop writing and go to bed soon. Alright, better listen to my body then, goodnight!
Well, school is okay for now. I mean, homework is moderate, so it's manageable and all. Schedule is iffy, so hopefully I'll get a trip to guidance tomorrow. Praying for a good guidance counsellor too. Really need it, because I want to add a course and whether I get that course or not really matters right now. At least my teachers are nice this semester, which is good. Too bad good teachers doesn't necessarily mean good schedule. Sigh.
Tomorrow is Niner Night at felly! I'm so excited, but again, I think we overdid it a bit. Hope we won't scare the nines away, oh dear. Looking forward to my Menchies date tomorrow after school, as well as my DG meeting, which we've now named ourselves GAG (Girls after God) ! Talk about a weird name, don't you think?
Preliminary retreat planning has already started. I can't believe everything's coming at me so quickly, this is crazy! But I do feel like this is in God's plan and so He I should be glorifying him while doing all this. I'm actually really excited for this year's retreat too, because we have a campsite established rather early this year so hopefully we'll be able to plan more things and just hype up the place even more! Hyping together with the Holy Spirit of course though, because ultimately, that's what breaks and changes people.
Another headache is on its way. It seems to be a typical occurrence every night now. I guess that means I should stop writing and go to bed soon. Alright, better listen to my body then, goodnight!
3.23.2012
02.23.12
I haven't posted for a whole week now. Long things short, I've had a migraine for the past 4ish days, and it's really starting to get to me. Migraines, for those who don't know, are basically headache extremes, they hurt a lot more, and come with a lot of other complications. Complications may include things like light and/or sound sensitivity, dizziness, nausea, throwing up, trouble concentrating at school/work, etc. And people who get migraines generally have them on a pretty regular basis, which sucks. Depending on the seriousness of the condition, over the counter meds may do it, or else the doctor may prescribe stronger pills.
My migraine has lasted 4 days this week. It usually lasts 1-2, or maybe 3 max. And it'd be on and off throughout the day. But this time it was pretty much throughout the whole day, consistently for 4 days straight. I've never had a migraine for this long, so I'm a bit worried now. I know and have realized that over the past couple of days, I've eaten certain foods which may have triggered a re-attack or whatnot, but even still, those foods were eaten in moderation and shouldn't have had as large of an effect on me as it had.
I guess just please pray for health, and that I'll get better soon, because I have quite a load of homework to do this weekend, and if the migraine hinders me from getting it done, I'll be even more stressed out about school next week. Your prayers are most definitely appreciated. Thanks in advance. (:
Hope to write again soon!
My migraine has lasted 4 days this week. It usually lasts 1-2, or maybe 3 max. And it'd be on and off throughout the day. But this time it was pretty much throughout the whole day, consistently for 4 days straight. I've never had a migraine for this long, so I'm a bit worried now. I know and have realized that over the past couple of days, I've eaten certain foods which may have triggered a re-attack or whatnot, but even still, those foods were eaten in moderation and shouldn't have had as large of an effect on me as it had.
I guess just please pray for health, and that I'll get better soon, because I have quite a load of homework to do this weekend, and if the migraine hinders me from getting it done, I'll be even more stressed out about school next week. Your prayers are most definitely appreciated. Thanks in advance. (:
Hope to write again soon!
3.17.2012
03.16.12.
Wow. So much has been happening over the past few days that I haven't had time to blog. Many updates for tonight then I guess!
First off, went to visit Queen's University on Tuesday! The 3 hour drive up was intense. And I mean intense. I had to wake up at like 5am in the morning, and leave home at 5:45am. The friend who came along with me arrived at my house at 5:40am. That's dedication. The day itself was pretty good, although the whole day could've been arranged better by the Queen's people in general. It wasn't my first time visiting Queen's (went in grade 10 as well), so I kind of knew what to expect. The campus was gorgeous as usual, and the food was amazing. Can't beat $5 all you can eat lunch! I got a lot more of my questions answered and just had a better sense of what I wanted to go into and stuff. It was a great day all in all! Super tiring and exhausting though. There's lots of pictures of my day on Facebook if you want to check it out.
Second. TC2012! Wow, what can I say. It was just an amazing two days, bonding with Team Refined and receiving lots of reminders from God about how I should be living my life. I'd say I didn't get much of a spiritual high this year, which is good, because that wasn't my motive for going this year. I wanted something deeper coming out of TC this year, something more genuine and everlasting. And I think all those little lessons and reminders from God were just what I needed. My team, Refined, was amazing, and we had a lot of spirit by the end of the two days. My captains and coaches were amazing, and they made TC2012 such a memorable experience. They really did go all out for us, but more importantly, they went all out for God. I'm particularly proud of my two female captains, because they've decided to make the decision to get baptized this Easter! What a real treat that is! I'm so excited for them, and so glad that they've chosen to become a part of God's amazing family! Again, lots of pictures and videos from the two days on Facebook, so please please go and take a look! And if you were at TC this year too, hope you got something memorable out of it and that you didn't go for the hype! And for those who didn't go to TC this year or have never heard of what TC is, I strongly encourage you to come join us at TC2013 next year during March Break! You will not be disappointed, because God is the centre of it all!
Today was the day after TC2012. It was very hard to break free from the whole experience I've got to say, and I constantly have to remind myself that TC is only the beginning and although I won't get to see my team everyday anymore, the friendships will last forever, and I will see many of my teammates in heaven one day. That is a very rewarding thing. Today, I went to visit Wilfrid Laurier University, in Waterloo. I really really loved the campus. Because it is a smaller university, a lot of the buildings are closer together (some are even linked!) and just the whole community feeling amongst the students is so much tighter. That's something I really like about this school. It has a very prestigious music program too, which is what I'm looking to go into at Laurier, so that's nice. Whether I get in next year or not will be a different story altogether. The people were really friendly, and the residences were really nice and spacious, so I'm sure no matter which residence I may get should I choose to go to Laurier, it will be an amazing experience. It was strange for me to go to Laurier actually, because only about 5% of the student population is Asian. It was like a huge culture shock. Bam. You're a minority now. Wow. A bit mindblown, although I'm sure should I choose to come to Laurier, I'll quickly be able to adjust to that.
Tomorrow is a lesson day. I have math class early in the morning, which I'm not looking forward to at all. I'm still in such a March Break mood. But at least I get the afternoon off tomorrow. Normally I have dance, but it's cancelled tomorrow, so I get to chill with my friends instead! We're having a hangout party at one of my friend's houses, which should be interesting! Playing Wii, snacking, potlucking, and just spending quality bonding time together. I'm really looking foward to it. It'll likely be my last "fun event" before school starts too. Ah, I'm not ready for Monday at all.
A prayer request. Continue to pray for hope, patience, and persistence, because life is still tough right now. Family problems here and there, some friends struggling with various things in their lives, financial problems (that won't go away any time soon), and just lots of stuff to do over the next little while in general. Please also pray that I'll continue to have a burning passion for God, and that my flame won't die out, because I'm a little scared of all that happening once TC is over. I know I didn't go for the hype this year and that I'm not on much of a spiritual high this year, but nonetheless, some of the emotions and feelings still remain, so yeah, keep that fire burning for God!
What a long post today. I guess that's what happens when I don't post for 4 days and try to fit all 4 updates into one huge post. Anyway. It's super late now, and I should sleep, even though I don't have to wake up early tomorrow. Not 5, 6, 7, or 8. Thank goodness I get to sleep in. Some much needed rest for sure. Alright, nights!
First off, went to visit Queen's University on Tuesday! The 3 hour drive up was intense. And I mean intense. I had to wake up at like 5am in the morning, and leave home at 5:45am. The friend who came along with me arrived at my house at 5:40am. That's dedication. The day itself was pretty good, although the whole day could've been arranged better by the Queen's people in general. It wasn't my first time visiting Queen's (went in grade 10 as well), so I kind of knew what to expect. The campus was gorgeous as usual, and the food was amazing. Can't beat $5 all you can eat lunch! I got a lot more of my questions answered and just had a better sense of what I wanted to go into and stuff. It was a great day all in all! Super tiring and exhausting though. There's lots of pictures of my day on Facebook if you want to check it out.
Second. TC2012! Wow, what can I say. It was just an amazing two days, bonding with Team Refined and receiving lots of reminders from God about how I should be living my life. I'd say I didn't get much of a spiritual high this year, which is good, because that wasn't my motive for going this year. I wanted something deeper coming out of TC this year, something more genuine and everlasting. And I think all those little lessons and reminders from God were just what I needed. My team, Refined, was amazing, and we had a lot of spirit by the end of the two days. My captains and coaches were amazing, and they made TC2012 such a memorable experience. They really did go all out for us, but more importantly, they went all out for God. I'm particularly proud of my two female captains, because they've decided to make the decision to get baptized this Easter! What a real treat that is! I'm so excited for them, and so glad that they've chosen to become a part of God's amazing family! Again, lots of pictures and videos from the two days on Facebook, so please please go and take a look! And if you were at TC this year too, hope you got something memorable out of it and that you didn't go for the hype! And for those who didn't go to TC this year or have never heard of what TC is, I strongly encourage you to come join us at TC2013 next year during March Break! You will not be disappointed, because God is the centre of it all!
Today was the day after TC2012. It was very hard to break free from the whole experience I've got to say, and I constantly have to remind myself that TC is only the beginning and although I won't get to see my team everyday anymore, the friendships will last forever, and I will see many of my teammates in heaven one day. That is a very rewarding thing. Today, I went to visit Wilfrid Laurier University, in Waterloo. I really really loved the campus. Because it is a smaller university, a lot of the buildings are closer together (some are even linked!) and just the whole community feeling amongst the students is so much tighter. That's something I really like about this school. It has a very prestigious music program too, which is what I'm looking to go into at Laurier, so that's nice. Whether I get in next year or not will be a different story altogether. The people were really friendly, and the residences were really nice and spacious, so I'm sure no matter which residence I may get should I choose to go to Laurier, it will be an amazing experience. It was strange for me to go to Laurier actually, because only about 5% of the student population is Asian. It was like a huge culture shock. Bam. You're a minority now. Wow. A bit mindblown, although I'm sure should I choose to come to Laurier, I'll quickly be able to adjust to that.
Tomorrow is a lesson day. I have math class early in the morning, which I'm not looking forward to at all. I'm still in such a March Break mood. But at least I get the afternoon off tomorrow. Normally I have dance, but it's cancelled tomorrow, so I get to chill with my friends instead! We're having a hangout party at one of my friend's houses, which should be interesting! Playing Wii, snacking, potlucking, and just spending quality bonding time together. I'm really looking foward to it. It'll likely be my last "fun event" before school starts too. Ah, I'm not ready for Monday at all.
A prayer request. Continue to pray for hope, patience, and persistence, because life is still tough right now. Family problems here and there, some friends struggling with various things in their lives, financial problems (that won't go away any time soon), and just lots of stuff to do over the next little while in general. Please also pray that I'll continue to have a burning passion for God, and that my flame won't die out, because I'm a little scared of all that happening once TC is over. I know I didn't go for the hype this year and that I'm not on much of a spiritual high this year, but nonetheless, some of the emotions and feelings still remain, so yeah, keep that fire burning for God!
What a long post today. I guess that's what happens when I don't post for 4 days and try to fit all 4 updates into one huge post. Anyway. It's super late now, and I should sleep, even though I don't have to wake up early tomorrow. Not 5, 6, 7, or 8. Thank goodness I get to sleep in. Some much needed rest for sure. Alright, nights!
3.12.2012
03.11.12
Sunday, wow already.
Time flies eh?
Today was all in all, a pretty good day.
Church this morning was nice, the message was really convicting and it made a lot of sense to me. Teaching grade 1s after (I was supply-teaching) was really cool, because I've never taught kids that young before. It just kind of brings a new perspective of thought to my life, because they're so innocent, and they try so hard to tell you what they know. They're adorable.
I went yum cha (the dim sum stuff) after church today with my parent's cell group. We stayed at the restaurant for a long time because the parent's wanted to talk. The kids table (where I was at) kept ourselves entertained with our gadgets and stuff. The food was good though at the least. My favourite dish was the glutinous rice balls with mango filling. It was absolutely delicious!
This is very strange. I haven't blogged about food in a very long time haha.
After that, I came home and finished some stuff before going out again. Spent most of the early evening out at Toogood Pond and Main Street with family friends and their siblings and playing with their dog. It was a lot of fun, getting to run up and down hills and around the playground with a dog beside me. A pretty intense cardio workout too, if you ask me. But I really love dogs, so I really don't mind. And since the weather is so nice, I might even go walking again tomorrow.
I won't tell you what exactly I'm doing tomorrow yet, but it should be a pretty fun day. I hope it doesn't rain tomorrow, or else I won't be able to go out and walk.
The rest of the week will keep me very busy, which means I must finish my business essay tomorrow. I'm about a third done. Hm. Better work harder tomorrow.
I took a personality disorder test tonight. Told me I had a very high chance of having borderline personality disorder. Research the symptoms on your own or ask me if you want. Besides that, a high chance of avoidant personality disorder as well. I agree I have the symptoms of both, but I just never knew there were legit names for my struggles. I'm not gonna "fixate" on these results though, it's just kind of good to be aware of what I'm struggling and dealing with. Hmm. I think I'll lift it up to God in prayer tonight too.
Okay. That's a lot of writing for one night. I think I'll stop for now. Nights.
Time flies eh?
Today was all in all, a pretty good day.
Church this morning was nice, the message was really convicting and it made a lot of sense to me. Teaching grade 1s after (I was supply-teaching) was really cool, because I've never taught kids that young before. It just kind of brings a new perspective of thought to my life, because they're so innocent, and they try so hard to tell you what they know. They're adorable.
I went yum cha (the dim sum stuff) after church today with my parent's cell group. We stayed at the restaurant for a long time because the parent's wanted to talk. The kids table (where I was at) kept ourselves entertained with our gadgets and stuff. The food was good though at the least. My favourite dish was the glutinous rice balls with mango filling. It was absolutely delicious!
This is very strange. I haven't blogged about food in a very long time haha.
After that, I came home and finished some stuff before going out again. Spent most of the early evening out at Toogood Pond and Main Street with family friends and their siblings and playing with their dog. It was a lot of fun, getting to run up and down hills and around the playground with a dog beside me. A pretty intense cardio workout too, if you ask me. But I really love dogs, so I really don't mind. And since the weather is so nice, I might even go walking again tomorrow.
I won't tell you what exactly I'm doing tomorrow yet, but it should be a pretty fun day. I hope it doesn't rain tomorrow, or else I won't be able to go out and walk.
The rest of the week will keep me very busy, which means I must finish my business essay tomorrow. I'm about a third done. Hm. Better work harder tomorrow.
I took a personality disorder test tonight. Told me I had a very high chance of having borderline personality disorder. Research the symptoms on your own or ask me if you want. Besides that, a high chance of avoidant personality disorder as well. I agree I have the symptoms of both, but I just never knew there were legit names for my struggles. I'm not gonna "fixate" on these results though, it's just kind of good to be aware of what I'm struggling and dealing with. Hmm. I think I'll lift it up to God in prayer tonight too.
Okay. That's a lot of writing for one night. I think I'll stop for now. Nights.
3.10.2012
03.09.12
Wow, what an amazing day. All in all, God, it was a very good day.
I'm not sure how much I'll be able to type before I get tired and fall asleep, but I'll try my best.
Lunch today was quite an adventure. A group of friends and I got delivery from a certain restaurant, and in my meal, there were lots of tiny bits and pieces of hair. Yes, hair. And a lot of it too. Like 10+ pieces. It was black, and it seemed to look like the remaining hair that is shed after a male gets a haircut. I tried to eat my way around the pieces of hair as I removed them, but in the end, we called the restaurant and filed a complaint and had them redeliver my meal free of charge. What an event.
Tonight was cell group night. Even though many people didn't end up coming, it was nice because we were able to have a "girl's night out" with the girls that were here. We played Just Dance 3, made dinner together, watched a movie, and prayed. I learnt a lot and gained a lot of reminders from God just about life, and how I should be living my life. It was just really great to be able to get back together with a close group of believers and truly be able to delve into each other's lives for a few hours.
As a result of spending my whole day with church people, I didn't get a chance to see my cousin. I was actually quite disappointed that both her gathering and the church planning/gathering meeting was on the same day, but then again, priorities and commitment is key. We talked on the phone today, but it's different to see someone in person you know? (Cuz, if you're reading this right now, I'm really sorry I couldn't come! D: Definitely next time though. Keep me notified. Love you lots ! <3)
TC is in a few days, and to be honest, I don't feel hyped up about it this year at all. It's not necessarily that my expectations are low or anything, I'm just really not feeling it this year. Maybe it'll change once I actually get to TC, but as of now, I'm not super excited nor looking forward to the event. It's strange, I've really never felt this way before about TC. But I guess there's a first for everything.
I'm really tired, and in fact, it's almost 1am. Oh gosh. Okay, that's all for tonight. Nights.
I'm not sure how much I'll be able to type before I get tired and fall asleep, but I'll try my best.
Lunch today was quite an adventure. A group of friends and I got delivery from a certain restaurant, and in my meal, there were lots of tiny bits and pieces of hair. Yes, hair. And a lot of it too. Like 10+ pieces. It was black, and it seemed to look like the remaining hair that is shed after a male gets a haircut. I tried to eat my way around the pieces of hair as I removed them, but in the end, we called the restaurant and filed a complaint and had them redeliver my meal free of charge. What an event.
Tonight was cell group night. Even though many people didn't end up coming, it was nice because we were able to have a "girl's night out" with the girls that were here. We played Just Dance 3, made dinner together, watched a movie, and prayed. I learnt a lot and gained a lot of reminders from God just about life, and how I should be living my life. It was just really great to be able to get back together with a close group of believers and truly be able to delve into each other's lives for a few hours.
As a result of spending my whole day with church people, I didn't get a chance to see my cousin. I was actually quite disappointed that both her gathering and the church planning/gathering meeting was on the same day, but then again, priorities and commitment is key. We talked on the phone today, but it's different to see someone in person you know? (Cuz, if you're reading this right now, I'm really sorry I couldn't come! D: Definitely next time though. Keep me notified. Love you lots ! <3)
TC is in a few days, and to be honest, I don't feel hyped up about it this year at all. It's not necessarily that my expectations are low or anything, I'm just really not feeling it this year. Maybe it'll change once I actually get to TC, but as of now, I'm not super excited nor looking forward to the event. It's strange, I've really never felt this way before about TC. But I guess there's a first for everything.
I'm really tired, and in fact, it's almost 1am. Oh gosh. Okay, that's all for tonight. Nights.
3.09.2012
03.08.12
My parents are asjflkajsdklf-ing again. Meaning fighting. Great. Just great.
About like everything too over the past few days. Finances, money, me, my brother, attitudes and perspectives, teaching methods, dinner times and how fast someone can cook, like seriously EVERYTHING. Gosh. When will this stop?
Friends know about it. I complain about it the instant it happens. I don't mean to bug them with it and clog their brains with more problems, but, it's just so overwhelming. And to make things worse, cousin's parents are fighting too. It's like the whole cycle is starting again. Goes up, and down and stays better for a while, and then rises again. What a nightmare.
Things from yesterday seem so distant right now, yes it's still consciously on my mind so much. Feeling like an invisible. I walked away from my normal friend group today, because I just couldn't keep my patience levels at norm, and I was afraid that if I stayed any longer, I would burst and explode at them. So instead, I went to find some grade 11s and I spent the remainder of lunch with them instead. They were very comforting and accepting, and we were just able to joke around. That was really really nice (: That's what friends are supposed to do anyway, right?
I'm not feeling well today actually. Like physically. I feel sick. Probably ate something gross during lunch today that made me feel weird. Stomach's been hurting on and off all day, and I got my first migraine of the month today as well. Just great. A lot of other people are sick though. Please pray for one of my friends, literally right after our quiz in class today, she just collapsed and put her head down for the rest of the period. She was really not feeling well, but she was kind of forcing herself to stay in class, and in band after school too, because she's a really good student and doesn't want to like, skip class you know? Really hope she feels better soon, kind of sucks having to see others sick and in so much pain, for a lack of a better word.
I'm out all day tomorrow, all for church things. Waking early too. One of my parents is okay with it, the other is really against it. Against me going out, even for church in general. Well, as with all things, it's hard to get both of my parents to have the same mindset, but I guess just pray that God will speak through me to them and that they'll hopefully be able to see that I'm really trying to glorify God through all that I'm doing?
I'm tired. And I should probably sleep soon, because I'm sick too. Okay I guess that's all I'll write for today. I hope tomorrow will bring about a better day (: Toodles.
About like everything too over the past few days. Finances, money, me, my brother, attitudes and perspectives, teaching methods, dinner times and how fast someone can cook, like seriously EVERYTHING. Gosh. When will this stop?
Friends know about it. I complain about it the instant it happens. I don't mean to bug them with it and clog their brains with more problems, but, it's just so overwhelming. And to make things worse, cousin's parents are fighting too. It's like the whole cycle is starting again. Goes up, and down and stays better for a while, and then rises again. What a nightmare.
Things from yesterday seem so distant right now, yes it's still consciously on my mind so much. Feeling like an invisible. I walked away from my normal friend group today, because I just couldn't keep my patience levels at norm, and I was afraid that if I stayed any longer, I would burst and explode at them. So instead, I went to find some grade 11s and I spent the remainder of lunch with them instead. They were very comforting and accepting, and we were just able to joke around. That was really really nice (: That's what friends are supposed to do anyway, right?
I'm not feeling well today actually. Like physically. I feel sick. Probably ate something gross during lunch today that made me feel weird. Stomach's been hurting on and off all day, and I got my first migraine of the month today as well. Just great. A lot of other people are sick though. Please pray for one of my friends, literally right after our quiz in class today, she just collapsed and put her head down for the rest of the period. She was really not feeling well, but she was kind of forcing herself to stay in class, and in band after school too, because she's a really good student and doesn't want to like, skip class you know? Really hope she feels better soon, kind of sucks having to see others sick and in so much pain, for a lack of a better word.
I'm out all day tomorrow, all for church things. Waking early too. One of my parents is okay with it, the other is really against it. Against me going out, even for church in general. Well, as with all things, it's hard to get both of my parents to have the same mindset, but I guess just pray that God will speak through me to them and that they'll hopefully be able to see that I'm really trying to glorify God through all that I'm doing?
I'm tired. And I should probably sleep soon, because I'm sick too. Okay I guess that's all I'll write for today. I hope tomorrow will bring about a better day (: Toodles.
3.08.2012
03.07.12
I'm the type of girl who can be so hurt but still look at you & smile and is willing to brighten your day even if I can't brighten my own.
if you're gonna keep making me feel invisible, i might as well just find someone else.
those were my phrases of the day. until about 30 minutes ago. shortly after i posted them, a few very special friends messaged me and asked me what's up. told them some details, and i'm very thankful they asked. i still feel a bit ajslfkjasdlkf, because i really don't know what will happen at school tomorrow, but i have hope that things way work out for the better.
that's all i'm gonna post right now. i'm so tired. good night
if you're gonna keep making me feel invisible, i might as well just find someone else.
those were my phrases of the day. until about 30 minutes ago. shortly after i posted them, a few very special friends messaged me and asked me what's up. told them some details, and i'm very thankful they asked. i still feel a bit ajslfkjasdlkf, because i really don't know what will happen at school tomorrow, but i have hope that things way work out for the better.
that's all i'm gonna post right now. i'm so tired. good night
3.06.2012
03.06.12
Whatever the words, if the motive isn’t love, it’s just noise.
^ That's something that was in my devos today. Hard to keep in mind, but I'm going to try. I'm gonna try because I know it's true and I want others to realize it too.
I'm actually not that excited for March Break. In fact, I'm kind of unmotivated for it. It's just like, oh, a week off of school, nbd. I mean yes there will be friend gatherings and time to spend with family and work out at the gym and TC and all, but really, it's not as big a deal for me as everyone is making it anymore. I guess it partially has to do with that list of "negative things" that I put on yesterday's post. Still can't exactly wrap my mind around it all just. I did figure it'd be best to bring it to God though. I won't go into detail about those points though, because it's very personal for me and my family. Yeah. I'll leave it at that. But if you could just please pray for me and my family, that'd be awesome (: Thanks.
School today was okay. The anthro test wasn't as bad as I had anticpated, which was a relief. I managed to squeeze some time out of period 2 and 3 to study too, so that was nice. I need to remember to start studying earlier though, which is why I brought my biology binder home tonight, even though the quiz isn't until Thursday. Let's hope I'll actually spend some time to study the material tonight though, because I have a business essay proposal/outline to write too.
Man, I just realized that I forgot to tell my friends I won't be in one of my classes tomorrow because of a dance show. Thank goodness for MSN. Sucks having to miss period 4 again. I literally like miss a class of anthro every single week for like trips and stuff. It's horrible. I wonder what type of an impression I'm giving the teacher...ahaha.
I'm actually kind of hungry. I think I'll go make some instant noodles once I'm finished this post. Yum. Need to work on data stuff after my snack. I have tutor tonight, and I still have quite a few pages to do. Gah. At least I get one week off classes because of March Break. At least that gives time to have a bit of a breather. Yay.
I don't see a need to stay up late tonight, so hopefully that won't happen. I really need to sleep even earlier, because although I have been getting more sleep lately, it's like, on the brink of getting just enough. So some days I'll function okay and other days I won't. I want to keep my energy level consistently adequate if possible. Let's hope it is.
Haha, okay, snack time now. Write again tonight or tomorrow! (:
^ That's something that was in my devos today. Hard to keep in mind, but I'm going to try. I'm gonna try because I know it's true and I want others to realize it too.
I'm actually not that excited for March Break. In fact, I'm kind of unmotivated for it. It's just like, oh, a week off of school, nbd. I mean yes there will be friend gatherings and time to spend with family and work out at the gym and TC and all, but really, it's not as big a deal for me as everyone is making it anymore. I guess it partially has to do with that list of "negative things" that I put on yesterday's post. Still can't exactly wrap my mind around it all just. I did figure it'd be best to bring it to God though. I won't go into detail about those points though, because it's very personal for me and my family. Yeah. I'll leave it at that. But if you could just please pray for me and my family, that'd be awesome (: Thanks.
School today was okay. The anthro test wasn't as bad as I had anticpated, which was a relief. I managed to squeeze some time out of period 2 and 3 to study too, so that was nice. I need to remember to start studying earlier though, which is why I brought my biology binder home tonight, even though the quiz isn't until Thursday. Let's hope I'll actually spend some time to study the material tonight though, because I have a business essay proposal/outline to write too.
Man, I just realized that I forgot to tell my friends I won't be in one of my classes tomorrow because of a dance show. Thank goodness for MSN. Sucks having to miss period 4 again. I literally like miss a class of anthro every single week for like trips and stuff. It's horrible. I wonder what type of an impression I'm giving the teacher...ahaha.
I'm actually kind of hungry. I think I'll go make some instant noodles once I'm finished this post. Yum. Need to work on data stuff after my snack. I have tutor tonight, and I still have quite a few pages to do. Gah. At least I get one week off classes because of March Break. At least that gives time to have a bit of a breather. Yay.
I don't see a need to stay up late tonight, so hopefully that won't happen. I really need to sleep even earlier, because although I have been getting more sleep lately, it's like, on the brink of getting just enough. So some days I'll function okay and other days I won't. I want to keep my energy level consistently adequate if possible. Let's hope it is.
Haha, okay, snack time now. Write again tonight or tomorrow! (:
03.05.12.
Feeling tired and apathetic right now as I type this. There's been so much going on today though that I felt a need to write now as opposed to tomorrow, even though it's late and I should be studying for anthro. Did I mention that I have a quest tomorrow? Gah. Gross.
I'll expand more tomorrow...and just jot down some key words today. Kind of feels like twitter LOL.
- money/finance problems
- family problems
- work overload
- worried, and maybe overconcerned
- shocked
And those are the keywords of today. The top two set of words on the list are the most important, and apply both to my direct family and my extended family. Argh. Life is...not fair to say the least. I know God never said it would be fair, but it's just like disaster after disaster, one chaotic event after another; it can get kind of hard to bare sometimes.
Lately my parents have also been talking about some things related to the keywords too. They talk when they think it's just me home (not when my bro is around), and when I'm in my room working or something, but truth is, I can hear every word that they're saying, and some of the stuff that they're not telling me directly worries me. I guess that's all I'll let out right now before I blow the whole situation out onto this blog.
I am so tired right now. I think I'm going to go sleep. Good night.
I'll expand more tomorrow...and just jot down some key words today. Kind of feels like twitter LOL.
- money/finance problems
- family problems
- work overload
- worried, and maybe overconcerned
- shocked
And those are the keywords of today. The top two set of words on the list are the most important, and apply both to my direct family and my extended family. Argh. Life is...not fair to say the least. I know God never said it would be fair, but it's just like disaster after disaster, one chaotic event after another; it can get kind of hard to bare sometimes.
Lately my parents have also been talking about some things related to the keywords too. They talk when they think it's just me home (not when my bro is around), and when I'm in my room working or something, but truth is, I can hear every word that they're saying, and some of the stuff that they're not telling me directly worries me. I guess that's all I'll let out right now before I blow the whole situation out onto this blog.
I am so tired right now. I think I'm going to go sleep. Good night.
3.04.2012
03.04.12
I forgot to post yesterday. Was too tired after all the big events. Biggest event was that there was a dress rehearsal at my dance studio for all of the competitive team students. It was so much fun, having our hair done full out with stage makeup and our costumes. Really exhausting, but such a fun experience (: It was also great to be able to watch some of the other dances. I'm really looking forward to competition season! It's like a month away!
Today I went to McDonalds for lunch after church. Pretty typical lunch and all, until I went to the washroom to wash my hands after touching all the grease and stuff. A girl came out of one of the stalls (I was waiting) and she tapped me on the shoulder. I turned around, and she held her hand up. Puzzled and confused, I high-fived her. (Then I went into the stall). I was thinking about the whole event, and it seemed like, I'm not sure, but she was different in some way. At first I thought she was a mute, but then I realized she could talk (heard her talking to herself while she was washing her hands). Her speech was choppy and only comprehend-able to a certain degree though, so I figured she had some kind of disability though. It was actually such a cool experience, because right after I high-fived her, I saw like the biggest smile on her face, as if that one little action made her day or something. Pretty cool if you ask me. Definitely keeping her and this event in prayer tonight (:
I worked very hard once I got home form church this afternoon, because I wanted to go to the Y in the evening. Of course, with perseverance, anything is possible, so I did manage to finish the work that's due tomorrow before going to the Y. It felt so good to be able to work out again, after not having gone to the gym for a week. It's like that refreshing feeling after you've done something really good. Nice feeling. I'll definitely be making the most out of my membership and going to the Y more often during March Break. Did I mention that there's only 4 more days (of school) until March Break? Eeeekss, I'm so excited!
I have my whole March Break planned out already, pretty much. University visits, friend gatherings, and TC. That should all be a blast (: I really hope and pray that God will be at the centre of all of it though, because it's so easy to leave God aside during breaks and long weekends.
I'm getting my new pointe shoes (the ballet shoes with the hard toe block that you balance on) sewn today. Yay. It's actually so amazing. Getting new pointe shoes really made my day. Reason behind the new shoes? My old shoes got soaked by a leaking water bottle in my dance bad. The shoe became really hard and like the shape changed, and even after it dried, the inside of the shoe felt damp. Basically, I couldn't dance in them anymore. So yeah, new shoes! I look forward to using them in class tomorrow! Hopefully we'll do pointe tomorrow (:
Oh look, today's post is already so long. I guess because really I was combining yesterday and today's post into one longer post. Anyway, back to homeworking now. Hopefully I'll have time to do my nails tonight before bed, and also have time to post tomorrow. Wish me luck. Toodles!
Today I went to McDonalds for lunch after church. Pretty typical lunch and all, until I went to the washroom to wash my hands after touching all the grease and stuff. A girl came out of one of the stalls (I was waiting) and she tapped me on the shoulder. I turned around, and she held her hand up. Puzzled and confused, I high-fived her. (Then I went into the stall). I was thinking about the whole event, and it seemed like, I'm not sure, but she was different in some way. At first I thought she was a mute, but then I realized she could talk (heard her talking to herself while she was washing her hands). Her speech was choppy and only comprehend-able to a certain degree though, so I figured she had some kind of disability though. It was actually such a cool experience, because right after I high-fived her, I saw like the biggest smile on her face, as if that one little action made her day or something. Pretty cool if you ask me. Definitely keeping her and this event in prayer tonight (:
I worked very hard once I got home form church this afternoon, because I wanted to go to the Y in the evening. Of course, with perseverance, anything is possible, so I did manage to finish the work that's due tomorrow before going to the Y. It felt so good to be able to work out again, after not having gone to the gym for a week. It's like that refreshing feeling after you've done something really good. Nice feeling. I'll definitely be making the most out of my membership and going to the Y more often during March Break. Did I mention that there's only 4 more days (of school) until March Break? Eeeekss, I'm so excited!
I have my whole March Break planned out already, pretty much. University visits, friend gatherings, and TC. That should all be a blast (: I really hope and pray that God will be at the centre of all of it though, because it's so easy to leave God aside during breaks and long weekends.
I'm getting my new pointe shoes (the ballet shoes with the hard toe block that you balance on) sewn today. Yay. It's actually so amazing. Getting new pointe shoes really made my day. Reason behind the new shoes? My old shoes got soaked by a leaking water bottle in my dance bad. The shoe became really hard and like the shape changed, and even after it dried, the inside of the shoe felt damp. Basically, I couldn't dance in them anymore. So yeah, new shoes! I look forward to using them in class tomorrow! Hopefully we'll do pointe tomorrow (:
Oh look, today's post is already so long. I guess because really I was combining yesterday and today's post into one longer post. Anyway, back to homeworking now. Hopefully I'll have time to do my nails tonight before bed, and also have time to post tomorrow. Wish me luck. Toodles!
3.02.2012
03.02.12
guess what? my newsfeed is filled with my cousin's posts again.
reasons why i love her :D
i wonder if she'll ever read this post. oh well.
i'm multitasking right now. math homework and blogging. maybe it's obvious that i like language more than math though, which is why i'm still typing this as i do my math. or maybe i just like to express my feelings in some way. art is better than blogging for me. but i'll stick with this for now.
today was a very long day. had to get to school at 8am to help out with OVF. besides a lunch break and singing with the chamber choir, i was volunteering all day, from 8-6. 10 hours. man. and did the same thing yesterday too, except that i sang with the concert choir and the ladies choir yesterday. 10-6 yesterday too. so 10 plus 8, making 18 hours. i'd better go claim those hours on monday.
OVF was a lot of fun though, and all of my school's choirs did really well this year. all 4 of our participating choirs got invited to nationals! how amazing is that? :O
i hope uch will let us go. she said she wanted to bring the choir to nationals this year if we get invited. i hope that's still true.
didn't go to felly tonight. a few reasons. one, i had some prep i need to do for tomorrow. tomorrow's gonna be a big day, so needed to get everything ready. you'l find out what tomorrow's all about the next time i blog. second, the program seemed to battle against me this week. i've never had this kind of a feeling before, one where i don't really agree with what the program is trying to say or give to the night. it was just kind of conflicting with my beliefs i guess, and i felt that me going to felly wouldn't have contributed to a positive cell group experience because i would have either said nothing or talked a lot about why the gospel isn't just what the program is trying to teach and such. i don't know. it's never happened before. but i guess with a topic as big and broad as evangelism, there are many ways to go about doing it.
the friend i wrote about a week ago is doing a lot better now. mom's still stubborn and hypocritical, but her dad is very supportive and faithful. and even though the dad's mother (aka friend's grandmother) just died last week too, dad is keeping a positive outlook and realizing God's purpose behind all this. so thankful for him. my friend's away from her family this weekend because she's at an overnight conference. she's doing well there so far. hope the weekend's great for her. praying for her :D
i persuaded another friend of mine into texting me today. she kept saying that she didn't see a point in texting me because she knew i wouldn't reply her because of lent. i told her to text me anyway. i was like: TEXT ME CUZ YOU LOVE ME AND YOU KNOW IT ;) that did the trick. so yay. and her text was sooo heartwarming too. it like actually made my heart melt. d'awww. i love sweet texts like that :P sent her a message saying so. hope she reads it tomorrow or something. so cuteeee.
alrighty...today's post is getting really long. i guess i'd better stop now. that's all for tonight, blog again soon!
reasons why i love her :D
i wonder if she'll ever read this post. oh well.
i'm multitasking right now. math homework and blogging. maybe it's obvious that i like language more than math though, which is why i'm still typing this as i do my math. or maybe i just like to express my feelings in some way. art is better than blogging for me. but i'll stick with this for now.
today was a very long day. had to get to school at 8am to help out with OVF. besides a lunch break and singing with the chamber choir, i was volunteering all day, from 8-6. 10 hours. man. and did the same thing yesterday too, except that i sang with the concert choir and the ladies choir yesterday. 10-6 yesterday too. so 10 plus 8, making 18 hours. i'd better go claim those hours on monday.
OVF was a lot of fun though, and all of my school's choirs did really well this year. all 4 of our participating choirs got invited to nationals! how amazing is that? :O
i hope uch will let us go. she said she wanted to bring the choir to nationals this year if we get invited. i hope that's still true.
didn't go to felly tonight. a few reasons. one, i had some prep i need to do for tomorrow. tomorrow's gonna be a big day, so needed to get everything ready. you'l find out what tomorrow's all about the next time i blog. second, the program seemed to battle against me this week. i've never had this kind of a feeling before, one where i don't really agree with what the program is trying to say or give to the night. it was just kind of conflicting with my beliefs i guess, and i felt that me going to felly wouldn't have contributed to a positive cell group experience because i would have either said nothing or talked a lot about why the gospel isn't just what the program is trying to teach and such. i don't know. it's never happened before. but i guess with a topic as big and broad as evangelism, there are many ways to go about doing it.
the friend i wrote about a week ago is doing a lot better now. mom's still stubborn and hypocritical, but her dad is very supportive and faithful. and even though the dad's mother (aka friend's grandmother) just died last week too, dad is keeping a positive outlook and realizing God's purpose behind all this. so thankful for him. my friend's away from her family this weekend because she's at an overnight conference. she's doing well there so far. hope the weekend's great for her. praying for her :D
i persuaded another friend of mine into texting me today. she kept saying that she didn't see a point in texting me because she knew i wouldn't reply her because of lent. i told her to text me anyway. i was like: TEXT ME CUZ YOU LOVE ME AND YOU KNOW IT ;) that did the trick. so yay. and her text was sooo heartwarming too. it like actually made my heart melt. d'awww. i love sweet texts like that :P sent her a message saying so. hope she reads it tomorrow or something. so cuteeee.
alrighty...today's post is getting really long. i guess i'd better stop now. that's all for tonight, blog again soon!
3.01.2012
03.01.12
Oops I forgot to post on leap year day, aka yesterday. Oh well too late. But happy leap year everyone :D
I can't believe it's March already. It's crazy. And in less than two weeks, it'll already be March Break. That means TC and loads of university visits. Yay.
I'm really not in the mood to write today. My eyes are like closing by the second. It's horrible. Really really need to sleep earlier tonight.
Volunteering for OVF again tomorrow. Shall be loads of fun (: And the chamber choir will be singing too. I've got to admit that we don't know our pieces as well as we should. I hope we come together and do okay tomorrow, because Concert Choir did pretty well today :D
Today's post is pretty pathetic. Super tired and nothing to write about. Oh well. Better luck tomorrow!
I can't believe it's March already. It's crazy. And in less than two weeks, it'll already be March Break. That means TC and loads of university visits. Yay.
I'm really not in the mood to write today. My eyes are like closing by the second. It's horrible. Really really need to sleep earlier tonight.
Volunteering for OVF again tomorrow. Shall be loads of fun (: And the chamber choir will be singing too. I've got to admit that we don't know our pieces as well as we should. I hope we come together and do okay tomorrow, because Concert Choir did pretty well today :D
Today's post is pretty pathetic. Super tired and nothing to write about. Oh well. Better luck tomorrow!
2.28.2012
02.28.12
Meant to write yesterday, but got too preoccupied with stuff.
Just came home from vocals. It was killer today. Three hours of choir after school plus one hour during lunch means a total of 4 hours of singing today. And we were only working on our OVF songs too. Because OVF is on Thursday, which is two days away. Gah. I've never had rehearsal from 3:30-6:45 before. It was so intense. We weren't super good either though, even after those three hours. I guess because besides concert choir, there were ladies groups and chamber choir as well, so a lot of groups with a lot of pieces and not enough time to practice. And now, I'm completely energy drained again. I think I'm gonna go zzz for a bit after this post. Practicing again after my zzz though, because we need to hand in practice logs soon. Man. Sad life.
I'm very happy about one thing though, the fact that God answers prayers. I was able to talk to the friend I've been mentioning in my posts recently last night, and we were able to discuss family life, home situations, God's plans for us, and the people He wants us to hang out with. I never got to reviewing the Gospel with her, but our talk was so genuine and God-centred that it was just sooo amazing. PTL for that :D
Another praise item is that my tailbone is getting better. I can walk down the stairs without it hurting at all now. Up the stairs, if it's more than one flight, it still hurts because it puts pressure on my tailbone, but it's already doing a lot better. And in dance, I can do most of the stuff now, including rolldowns. The only thing i can't really do still are rolls on the floor. But that's okay, because rolls are literally on your tailbone. So it's expected that it will still hurt to do rolls for a few more days.
I'm really craving instant noodles and sushi right now. Random, I know, but I'm pretty hungry too. Instant noodles because I ate instant rice for lunch, so I figured I might as well finish the combo with instant noodles too. Sushi because last night I saw a sushi-making show on TV and I got so hungry. The image hasn't been able to leave my mind since. LOL. Instead though, I will resort to cookies, because it is the only thing I have on hand to eat right now. Better than no food I guess.
That's it for today. I feel the need to snack and then snooze now. Write again tomorrow!
Just came home from vocals. It was killer today. Three hours of choir after school plus one hour during lunch means a total of 4 hours of singing today. And we were only working on our OVF songs too. Because OVF is on Thursday, which is two days away. Gah. I've never had rehearsal from 3:30-6:45 before. It was so intense. We weren't super good either though, even after those three hours. I guess because besides concert choir, there were ladies groups and chamber choir as well, so a lot of groups with a lot of pieces and not enough time to practice. And now, I'm completely energy drained again. I think I'm gonna go zzz for a bit after this post. Practicing again after my zzz though, because we need to hand in practice logs soon. Man. Sad life.
I'm very happy about one thing though, the fact that God answers prayers. I was able to talk to the friend I've been mentioning in my posts recently last night, and we were able to discuss family life, home situations, God's plans for us, and the people He wants us to hang out with. I never got to reviewing the Gospel with her, but our talk was so genuine and God-centred that it was just sooo amazing. PTL for that :D
Another praise item is that my tailbone is getting better. I can walk down the stairs without it hurting at all now. Up the stairs, if it's more than one flight, it still hurts because it puts pressure on my tailbone, but it's already doing a lot better. And in dance, I can do most of the stuff now, including rolldowns. The only thing i can't really do still are rolls on the floor. But that's okay, because rolls are literally on your tailbone. So it's expected that it will still hurt to do rolls for a few more days.
I'm really craving instant noodles and sushi right now. Random, I know, but I'm pretty hungry too. Instant noodles because I ate instant rice for lunch, so I figured I might as well finish the combo with instant noodles too. Sushi because last night I saw a sushi-making show on TV and I got so hungry. The image hasn't been able to leave my mind since. LOL. Instead though, I will resort to cookies, because it is the only thing I have on hand to eat right now. Better than no food I guess.
That's it for today. I feel the need to snack and then snooze now. Write again tomorrow!
2.27.2012
02.26.12
Sunday. Already. Wow.
Business test tomorrow. Not great. It's my weakest subject right now. It's like one of those courses where there's so much common sense involved that you don't know when something is right or wrong anymore. Gah.
Also made some decisions today.
1) Not going to semi. Going to music banquet later instead. Make a whole pro/con chart thing, and weighed the pro/cons of each choice. Chose music banquet in the end.
2) I really need to get myself a vocal teacher soon. If I even want to stand a chance in studying vocals/music education in university. I'll be auditioning for piano too, but seriously, I'd much prefer vocals over piano. Need to get myself up to grade 8 RCM vocals over the next year though. That's tough. But I'm willing to work for it. What's tougher is whether my parents will let me. They're letting me audition for vocals in uni, but I don't know if they'd be willing to pay for more lessons. Need to make a contact/deal with them at least for summer lessons. Oh boy, this is going to be tough.
The friend who I wrote about in my post yesterday. Guess what. Her grandmother died today. More sad news to cause more trauma into her already seemingly messed up life. Great. But she admires her grandmother, and seems to thank her for being such an inspiring Christian. Well at least that's good. But with so much admiration probably is going to come a time of grief. Wow. So many situations in her life piling up one at a time. More prayer is needed again, I guess.
Oops sidetracked again. Studying is very hard. It requires a lot of concentration...which I don't have. The ADD-ness is kicking in again. Ahahaa. I should finish reviewing and go to bed. I guess that means I'll have to finish off my CE tomorrow. Dang. Really need to be more productive, this is horrible.
Business test tomorrow. Not great. It's my weakest subject right now. It's like one of those courses where there's so much common sense involved that you don't know when something is right or wrong anymore. Gah.
Also made some decisions today.
1) Not going to semi. Going to music banquet later instead. Make a whole pro/con chart thing, and weighed the pro/cons of each choice. Chose music banquet in the end.
2) I really need to get myself a vocal teacher soon. If I even want to stand a chance in studying vocals/music education in university. I'll be auditioning for piano too, but seriously, I'd much prefer vocals over piano. Need to get myself up to grade 8 RCM vocals over the next year though. That's tough. But I'm willing to work for it. What's tougher is whether my parents will let me. They're letting me audition for vocals in uni, but I don't know if they'd be willing to pay for more lessons. Need to make a contact/deal with them at least for summer lessons. Oh boy, this is going to be tough.
The friend who I wrote about in my post yesterday. Guess what. Her grandmother died today. More sad news to cause more trauma into her already seemingly messed up life. Great. But she admires her grandmother, and seems to thank her for being such an inspiring Christian. Well at least that's good. But with so much admiration probably is going to come a time of grief. Wow. So many situations in her life piling up one at a time. More prayer is needed again, I guess.
Oops sidetracked again. Studying is very hard. It requires a lot of concentration...which I don't have. The ADD-ness is kicking in again. Ahahaa. I should finish reviewing and go to bed. I guess that means I'll have to finish off my CE tomorrow. Dang. Really need to be more productive, this is horrible.
2.25.2012
02.25.12
my newsfeed is once again filled with my cousin's posts. great. tumblr's so addicting, eh cuz?
LOL get to work soon (:
life has been rather confusing lately. loads to update about, but i'll keep it down to a few points.
fell down the stairs on wednesday and injured my tailbone. and to make it worse, it was my garage stairs. they're made of concrete, so it was a hard fall. but oh well. can't change the past. hurts to bend down and do certain movements now, but time will heal that. on the bright side, i get to use the elevator key at school now (:
again. it's like an annual thing, an injury and elevator privileges. last year it was my ankle, this year it's my tailbone. wonder what it'll be next year?
i'm more concerned about one of my friends now more than anything. won't say too much, but basically her parents are going through a divorce right now, but the whole family's christian. the parents are already separated (live under different roofs), but they haven't signed an official divorce paper or anything yet. the mom's into drugs and drinking, and the dad is seeing another woman. the weird part is that this friend wants the divorce to happen, cuz she dislikes her mom and likes the woman her dad is seeing. so she wants the divorce to happen, and then to move in with her dad. doesn't something just seem a bit...wrong or weird about that? but at the same time, i'm not sure what i can really do to help her. one of my church friends suggested going through the gospel with her again, and i think that will help, but i'm not really sure on how to go about doing that. prayer to start with i guess.
very distracted tonight. can't finish this post without focussing and turning to other things. need to MiM soon too. gah. so much to do. lots of projects and tests to study for this weekend too.
currently also debating on what to do with my summer. stuck between the explore program and doing summer school co-op. making a chart of pros and cons for each right now. making it with a friend actually, cuz she insisted it'd help. hopefully it does.
don't feel like writing anymore. a little energy drained and fajsdlfkjdslf. great word to describe how i'm feeling eh? LOL. okay. toodles.
LOL get to work soon (:
life has been rather confusing lately. loads to update about, but i'll keep it down to a few points.
fell down the stairs on wednesday and injured my tailbone. and to make it worse, it was my garage stairs. they're made of concrete, so it was a hard fall. but oh well. can't change the past. hurts to bend down and do certain movements now, but time will heal that. on the bright side, i get to use the elevator key at school now (:
again. it's like an annual thing, an injury and elevator privileges. last year it was my ankle, this year it's my tailbone. wonder what it'll be next year?
i'm more concerned about one of my friends now more than anything. won't say too much, but basically her parents are going through a divorce right now, but the whole family's christian. the parents are already separated (live under different roofs), but they haven't signed an official divorce paper or anything yet. the mom's into drugs and drinking, and the dad is seeing another woman. the weird part is that this friend wants the divorce to happen, cuz she dislikes her mom and likes the woman her dad is seeing. so she wants the divorce to happen, and then to move in with her dad. doesn't something just seem a bit...wrong or weird about that? but at the same time, i'm not sure what i can really do to help her. one of my church friends suggested going through the gospel with her again, and i think that will help, but i'm not really sure on how to go about doing that. prayer to start with i guess.
very distracted tonight. can't finish this post without focussing and turning to other things. need to MiM soon too. gah. so much to do. lots of projects and tests to study for this weekend too.
currently also debating on what to do with my summer. stuck between the explore program and doing summer school co-op. making a chart of pros and cons for each right now. making it with a friend actually, cuz she insisted it'd help. hopefully it does.
don't feel like writing anymore. a little energy drained and fajsdlfkjdslf. great word to describe how i'm feeling eh? LOL. okay. toodles.
2.22.2012
02.22.12
It's Wednesday.
First day of lent. Giving up texting this year. So no texting for me until Easter. This shall be interesting.
I'm anticipating that I will be able to do it, but it'll be really hard, and I'll have to resist a lot of temptation along the way.
School was okay today. Lunch was interesting...cuz most of the 10s were on a french field trip (Franco Fete), so there were so much fewer people than usual. It was nice for a change though. Quieter. And since I had full lunch today, I even managed to get some studying done. That was good. I felt accomplished.
Practicing piano right now. Or...will be as soon as I'm done typing. Gah the songs are so hard nowadays. On the bright side though, I'm applying for a job at my music school as practice coach. Pretty must a guaranteed job if you submit your application, which I'll be handing it tonight. Minimum wage, but better than nothing. And it'd look better on a resume than say McDonalds or Menchies or something. So yeah. Excited for that.
That's all I'm gonna write for now. Need to get back to work. Toodles!
First day of lent. Giving up texting this year. So no texting for me until Easter. This shall be interesting.
I'm anticipating that I will be able to do it, but it'll be really hard, and I'll have to resist a lot of temptation along the way.
School was okay today. Lunch was interesting...cuz most of the 10s were on a french field trip (Franco Fete), so there were so much fewer people than usual. It was nice for a change though. Quieter. And since I had full lunch today, I even managed to get some studying done. That was good. I felt accomplished.
Practicing piano right now. Or...will be as soon as I'm done typing. Gah the songs are so hard nowadays. On the bright side though, I'm applying for a job at my music school as practice coach. Pretty must a guaranteed job if you submit your application, which I'll be handing it tonight. Minimum wage, but better than nothing. And it'd look better on a resume than say McDonalds or Menchies or something. So yeah. Excited for that.
That's all I'm gonna write for now. Need to get back to work. Toodles!
2.19.2012
02.19.12
Alright, it's about time I start posting again. I don't care if my retreat rant post isn't done yet, I can always finish that some other time.
Today was a topsy-turvy day to say the least.
Woke up super early this morning because I had to be at church by 8:45 to practice for Driven. Song set went well though, so that was good. Mic problems though. AV seriously needs to get their act together, because the vocalists could barely even be heard the entire way through. Gah.
Lunch was nice. Went to the food court and bumped into a few unexpected friends, and had a nice chat. Good to get together with people whom you haven't seen in a while. Went grocery shopping after that, which was pretty fun. Father and daughter bonding time. Yeee. And bought more cookie dough and frozen fruit so that I can make more cookies and smoothies tomorrow. Yuuumm stuff.
Spent the rest of the afternoon/evening at my cousin's house. Huge friend gathering, which was pretty fun. We played Just Dance 3, just like we always do, and watched a movie. Another horror movie, as usual. This time it was called Pulse. I thought it was such a great movie. And not scary to the point where I'd get nightmares tonight, but decently scary. Good movie (y).
Need to work on my business assignment now. I must submit it online to my teacher through Moodle before midnight, or else I'm toast. I'm pretty much done, I just need to proofread it now, but knowing me, I can procrastinate in every way imaginable, so I'd better stop blogging and finish that editting.
Toodles!
Today was a topsy-turvy day to say the least.
Woke up super early this morning because I had to be at church by 8:45 to practice for Driven. Song set went well though, so that was good. Mic problems though. AV seriously needs to get their act together, because the vocalists could barely even be heard the entire way through. Gah.
Lunch was nice. Went to the food court and bumped into a few unexpected friends, and had a nice chat. Good to get together with people whom you haven't seen in a while. Went grocery shopping after that, which was pretty fun. Father and daughter bonding time. Yeee. And bought more cookie dough and frozen fruit so that I can make more cookies and smoothies tomorrow. Yuuumm stuff.
Spent the rest of the afternoon/evening at my cousin's house. Huge friend gathering, which was pretty fun. We played Just Dance 3, just like we always do, and watched a movie. Another horror movie, as usual. This time it was called Pulse. I thought it was such a great movie. And not scary to the point where I'd get nightmares tonight, but decently scary. Good movie (y).
Need to work on my business assignment now. I must submit it online to my teacher through Moodle before midnight, or else I'm toast. I'm pretty much done, I just need to proofread it now, but knowing me, I can procrastinate in every way imaginable, so I'd better stop blogging and finish that editting.
Toodles!
2.02.2012
02.02.12
Oops I accidentally forgot to post yesterday. Oh well.
Today was a bit of a disappointment. It's like, whatever I do is never enough for them. I come home with an 86 average and I get told it's horrible because it's my arts courses plus English that's pulling up my mark. Well guess what? It's friggin super duper hard to get above 90 on an English course okay? And the fact that I decided to dedicate my time to that subject of all things shows that I care about it and want the mark. So stop complaining about some of my other marks that aren't as high. At least they're all still above an 80. Geez.
Besides marks and school, the tension in my family is building up all over again. Ugh. For some, that may mean the need for counselling. For me, it means suck it up because we've tried counselling in the past and it doesn't work. Or at least the person who counselled us didn't help change anything. I figured God would be the best counsellor for this type of stuff anyway. So, I'll just toss everything over to Him.
On the bright side, I had a productive practice with my retreat worship team today. We were able to run through all our sets, assign roles and whatnot. Good bonding time, and jamming time too. I feel excited for retreat, yet so energy drained as well. At least the excitement is a good thing though. It might also be a good getaway from my chaotic family life for a few days. Seems a bit mean for me to think of it that way, but I think everyone just needs time to calm down away from each other.
I really need to give God some time to handle everything in my life. I appreciate when people ask me how I'm doing, but honestly, it's one thing to blog and rant about your life, and another to have people around you everyday asking if the situation's changed. It's not like miracles happen on a daily basis in my life, okay? I'm trusting in God and I know it's gonna take time, so just ask me periodically. Or else it gets annoying. And I'll seem rude to you. Which is not good for the both of us.
I think I'm gonna go snooze for a bit now. My emotions are playing around with my brain today. Stupid things that don't go together. Laters.
Today was a bit of a disappointment. It's like, whatever I do is never enough for them. I come home with an 86 average and I get told it's horrible because it's my arts courses plus English that's pulling up my mark. Well guess what? It's friggin super duper hard to get above 90 on an English course okay? And the fact that I decided to dedicate my time to that subject of all things shows that I care about it and want the mark. So stop complaining about some of my other marks that aren't as high. At least they're all still above an 80. Geez.
Besides marks and school, the tension in my family is building up all over again. Ugh. For some, that may mean the need for counselling. For me, it means suck it up because we've tried counselling in the past and it doesn't work. Or at least the person who counselled us didn't help change anything. I figured God would be the best counsellor for this type of stuff anyway. So, I'll just toss everything over to Him.
On the bright side, I had a productive practice with my retreat worship team today. We were able to run through all our sets, assign roles and whatnot. Good bonding time, and jamming time too. I feel excited for retreat, yet so energy drained as well. At least the excitement is a good thing though. It might also be a good getaway from my chaotic family life for a few days. Seems a bit mean for me to think of it that way, but I think everyone just needs time to calm down away from each other.
I really need to give God some time to handle everything in my life. I appreciate when people ask me how I'm doing, but honestly, it's one thing to blog and rant about your life, and another to have people around you everyday asking if the situation's changed. It's not like miracles happen on a daily basis in my life, okay? I'm trusting in God and I know it's gonna take time, so just ask me periodically. Or else it gets annoying. And I'll seem rude to you. Which is not good for the both of us.
I think I'm gonna go snooze for a bit now. My emotions are playing around with my brain today. Stupid things that don't go together. Laters.
1.31.2012
01.31.12
It's almost February. Already. Wow. A few more hours and that's it.
Today was a fun day, to say the least.
My cousin came over, and we had a study date. But we also made lunch, smoothies, and cookies together. It was so much fun. Everything we made was experimental, but it all turned out well, so that was good. :) Photos on FB, for those of you who know me personally. We were also quite productive at the same time, and got a lot of studying done. No computer/TV for 4 hours really made us work hard. We left the radio on just to lighten up the mood, and we sung along to all the songs, aha. Genetics.
Oh, I must mention, I'm a bit of a Directioner now. Love One Direction. They're sooo amazing. That said, I'm so sad that Tumblr is down tonight. Server's overfilled or something of the sort. Eww. I could be tumbling about One Direction and reblogging all the awesome photos on Tumblr right now. But no, it's just Facebook and Twitter tonight. Oh well. It's late. Should be going to bed soon anyway I guess.
Tutor was asdlfjkadlsf today. Hard concepts. Intro to grade 12 lesson. Really great start aha. And I thought grade 12 math would be less of a jump than it was from grade 10 to grade 11. We'll really have to see about that...sigh.
Tomorrow will be an interesting day. Pianoing most of the day, and jamming with my retreat worship band. The 10s have their math exam tomorrow, so I won't get to see them again till Thursday. But oh well, that's okay. Good luck to them :) I know quite a few of them are freaking out for math. Lots of reassurance given to my fellow grade 10s over the past few days. Need to pray for them tonight before bed as well.
I write about family everyday; it gets repetitive. Things are heating up again. Don't know how long it'll be before the chaos dies down completely. I think my cuzzin's family is doing better today, so I guess that's good. Mine isn't, but time will heal things. I want to believe that anyway.
Alright, it's about time I head off for bed now. Toodles!
Today was a fun day, to say the least.
My cousin came over, and we had a study date. But we also made lunch, smoothies, and cookies together. It was so much fun. Everything we made was experimental, but it all turned out well, so that was good. :) Photos on FB, for those of you who know me personally. We were also quite productive at the same time, and got a lot of studying done. No computer/TV for 4 hours really made us work hard. We left the radio on just to lighten up the mood, and we sung along to all the songs, aha. Genetics.
Oh, I must mention, I'm a bit of a Directioner now. Love One Direction. They're sooo amazing. That said, I'm so sad that Tumblr is down tonight. Server's overfilled or something of the sort. Eww. I could be tumbling about One Direction and reblogging all the awesome photos on Tumblr right now. But no, it's just Facebook and Twitter tonight. Oh well. It's late. Should be going to bed soon anyway I guess.
Tutor was asdlfjkadlsf today. Hard concepts. Intro to grade 12 lesson. Really great start aha. And I thought grade 12 math would be less of a jump than it was from grade 10 to grade 11. We'll really have to see about that...sigh.
Tomorrow will be an interesting day. Pianoing most of the day, and jamming with my retreat worship band. The 10s have their math exam tomorrow, so I won't get to see them again till Thursday. But oh well, that's okay. Good luck to them :) I know quite a few of them are freaking out for math. Lots of reassurance given to my fellow grade 10s over the past few days. Need to pray for them tonight before bed as well.
I write about family everyday; it gets repetitive. Things are heating up again. Don't know how long it'll be before the chaos dies down completely. I think my cuzzin's family is doing better today, so I guess that's good. Mine isn't, but time will heal things. I want to believe that anyway.
Alright, it's about time I head off for bed now. Toodles!
1.30.2012
01.30.12 (part 2)
Wow. What an eventful day.
So the math exam today actually wasn't that hard. In fact, I was speeding through it until I got to the last question. Stumped. Good thing I still had like 30 min left though. I tried and tried, and I couldn't come to an answer. My graph didn't look right, and the formula I had created didn't match the graph. It was like...omgssssh, everything was going soo well, why now?!? Anyway. I stopped writing and took a breather, and decided to pray to God. After praying, I got the answer on my next attempt! Well, I still don't know for sure if it's the right answer, but I have a hunch it just might be (: After praying, God gave me the confidence and wisdom I needed to help me finish the exam, so I was really really thankful for that.
And it's not the first "exam success" story I've heard because someone prayed during their exam too. In fact, my cuz actually had a similar experience on one of her exams a few days ago too. So PTL for His amazing and enduring love, and for Him giving both my cuz and I wisdom during the exam when we got stumped. Lesson learnt, pray all throughout your exam. God really will watch out for you (:
After my exam, I went over to a friend's place to chill for a while, and we watched The Box together. It's a horror/thriller/sci-fi mystery movie from 2009. Really strange plot and stuff, and kinda confusing, but decent movie nonetheless. Next on my list is to watch The Host, a Korean horror/monster movie. Really looking forward to that. It should be quite a good movie. The ratings seem good (:
Family is slowly getting better. I've had lots of people praying for me about it lately, so thanks everyone for that. Slowly getting better, but like still, there's this thing with the people in my family. We're really good at holding grudges and ignoring one another. Not exactly a good thing. And some of us are also really stubborn and don't like to admit that we're wrong. It's kind of a thing that my cuzzin and I have noticed throughout our families. Kind of like a family trend. Talk about awks, aha.
I'm looking forward to tomorrow actually. Should be a fun day. Get to sleep in, make my own lunch and experiment with the kitchen, make cookies in the afternoon, and chillz with my cuzz. Who could ask for anything better considering it's still technically a school day? (: EXCITED FOR RETREAT TOO. it's a few days away, can't wait!
Alright, it's late. I should go to bed soon. Write again tomorrow! Nightss!
So the math exam today actually wasn't that hard. In fact, I was speeding through it until I got to the last question. Stumped. Good thing I still had like 30 min left though. I tried and tried, and I couldn't come to an answer. My graph didn't look right, and the formula I had created didn't match the graph. It was like...omgssssh, everything was going soo well, why now?!? Anyway. I stopped writing and took a breather, and decided to pray to God. After praying, I got the answer on my next attempt! Well, I still don't know for sure if it's the right answer, but I have a hunch it just might be (: After praying, God gave me the confidence and wisdom I needed to help me finish the exam, so I was really really thankful for that.
And it's not the first "exam success" story I've heard because someone prayed during their exam too. In fact, my cuz actually had a similar experience on one of her exams a few days ago too. So PTL for His amazing and enduring love, and for Him giving both my cuz and I wisdom during the exam when we got stumped. Lesson learnt, pray all throughout your exam. God really will watch out for you (:
After my exam, I went over to a friend's place to chill for a while, and we watched The Box together. It's a horror/thriller/sci-fi mystery movie from 2009. Really strange plot and stuff, and kinda confusing, but decent movie nonetheless. Next on my list is to watch The Host, a Korean horror/monster movie. Really looking forward to that. It should be quite a good movie. The ratings seem good (:
Family is slowly getting better. I've had lots of people praying for me about it lately, so thanks everyone for that. Slowly getting better, but like still, there's this thing with the people in my family. We're really good at holding grudges and ignoring one another. Not exactly a good thing. And some of us are also really stubborn and don't like to admit that we're wrong. It's kind of a thing that my cuzzin and I have noticed throughout our families. Kind of like a family trend. Talk about awks, aha.
I'm looking forward to tomorrow actually. Should be a fun day. Get to sleep in, make my own lunch and experiment with the kitchen, make cookies in the afternoon, and chillz with my cuzz. Who could ask for anything better considering it's still technically a school day? (: EXCITED FOR RETREAT TOO. it's a few days away, can't wait!
Alright, it's late. I should go to bed soon. Write again tomorrow! Nightss!
01.30.12
Hello there. Another early morning post for today I suppose.
I actually woke at 10:30am today, though I promised myself I'd wake at 8:30am. Whatta fail. Aha. Oh well, it's okay, I don't have much left to study for math anyway.
Today's the math exam. Not nervous. Maybe because I'm still sick and my brain isn't functioning properly. Or maybe because I actually feel confident enough to not be nervous. I'm not sure. Hoping the 2nd, because then that would be a good thing.
Should be studying right now, or reviewing my notes at least. But look, I'm on Blogspot again...LOL. And Tumblr. It was the first thing I went on this morning once I woke up. Not obsessed, but nothing better to do I guess. There was hardly anyone on MSN to talk to, so I figured I'd go blog. Yeaaa :)
A bit of freedom after my exam is over today, which is good. One less thing to worry about is always good. But then, there's still family issues to worry about. My cuzz and I. Still. Family is like adklfjakdlsjflkd. Wish we could both do something to change the circumstances, because we feel like we're just kinda stuck in the middle right now. And everyone in our family is really good at holding grudges too. That, for once, isn't a good thing, because we're all just trying to avoid one another now. Well, except for my cuzzin and I of course. We're talking more than usual. But the rest of the famjam isn't. I don't know. We've both been praying a lot for our families and for each other. Hopefully God will help smoothen out things soon and things will go back to normal. For at least a bit. Need some time to gain some hope back.
I complain a lot. It's true. That whole paragraph up there ^ was basically complaining and me moaping about. Need to stop being a pessimist and like look on the bright side of everything. My status of the day is to tell people to smile, because you can. Now, I need to apply that to myself too. There's always a silver lining in each cloud, and you just have to find it. I need to find mine.
Okay, enough blogging for now, maybe I'll write again tonight. Toodles!
I actually woke at 10:30am today, though I promised myself I'd wake at 8:30am. Whatta fail. Aha. Oh well, it's okay, I don't have much left to study for math anyway.
Today's the math exam. Not nervous. Maybe because I'm still sick and my brain isn't functioning properly. Or maybe because I actually feel confident enough to not be nervous. I'm not sure. Hoping the 2nd, because then that would be a good thing.
Should be studying right now, or reviewing my notes at least. But look, I'm on Blogspot again...LOL. And Tumblr. It was the first thing I went on this morning once I woke up. Not obsessed, but nothing better to do I guess. There was hardly anyone on MSN to talk to, so I figured I'd go blog. Yeaaa :)
A bit of freedom after my exam is over today, which is good. One less thing to worry about is always good. But then, there's still family issues to worry about. My cuzz and I. Still. Family is like adklfjakdlsjflkd. Wish we could both do something to change the circumstances, because we feel like we're just kinda stuck in the middle right now. And everyone in our family is really good at holding grudges too. That, for once, isn't a good thing, because we're all just trying to avoid one another now. Well, except for my cuzzin and I of course. We're talking more than usual. But the rest of the famjam isn't. I don't know. We've both been praying a lot for our families and for each other. Hopefully God will help smoothen out things soon and things will go back to normal. For at least a bit. Need some time to gain some hope back.
I complain a lot. It's true. That whole paragraph up there ^ was basically complaining and me moaping about. Need to stop being a pessimist and like look on the bright side of everything. My status of the day is to tell people to smile, because you can. Now, I need to apply that to myself too. There's always a silver lining in each cloud, and you just have to find it. I need to find mine.
Okay, enough blogging for now, maybe I'll write again tonight. Toodles!
1.29.2012
01.29.12
So if you're observant, you'll have noticed that I didn't post anything yesterday. Wasn't exactly in the mood to write. Things have just been so chaotic over the weekend.
Family problems. Won't say too much, but life at home hasn't been the greatest. Lots of arguments between the 'rents and stuff lately. Same for my cousin, but even worse to some degree. It's good that we have each other to talk to (my cousin and I) and that we both brought our problems to God, but like, we just wish that our parents would understand how we're feeling, and how scared we are sometimes to be living under our own roofs. Pray for us, will you?
Math exam is tomorrow. Not super worried, cuz I guess I'm just at a point where I don't really care anymore. I haven't been feeling well this week either, and my cold's been getting worse, so like I'm not exactly in the mood to study super hard. Looking over my notes right now, but sort of grazing over them. I think I'll be okay for math though. I don't know. We'll see tomorrow I guess.
That's all for now. Sorry for such a depressing post today, but just gotta live life and move on. Toodles.
Family problems. Won't say too much, but life at home hasn't been the greatest. Lots of arguments between the 'rents and stuff lately. Same for my cousin, but even worse to some degree. It's good that we have each other to talk to (my cousin and I) and that we both brought our problems to God, but like, we just wish that our parents would understand how we're feeling, and how scared we are sometimes to be living under our own roofs. Pray for us, will you?
Math exam is tomorrow. Not super worried, cuz I guess I'm just at a point where I don't really care anymore. I haven't been feeling well this week either, and my cold's been getting worse, so like I'm not exactly in the mood to study super hard. Looking over my notes right now, but sort of grazing over them. I think I'll be okay for math though. I don't know. We'll see tomorrow I guess.
That's all for now. Sorry for such a depressing post today, but just gotta live life and move on. Toodles.
1.27.2012
01.27.12 (part 2)
Second post of the day. Wow, someone's dedicated.
Anyway, felly was soo fun today. Spent some quality time with my cousin, and we just gelled so well together (: Didn't get too too much studying done, but at least I got time to finish all the retreat stuff and pull out the cheques. I'm no longer carrying loads of money of me. Thank goodness. So scared I would lose it and stuff.
Newcomer's introduction was interesting today. Name, grade, school, and make a slug sound. Haha my cousin's slug sound + the expression on her face = picture perfect moment. Except no camera on hand. It was hilarious though. Sluggsss for lifee <3
I'm not really worried about my math exam on Monday. I don't know if I'm actually not worried or if the pressure isn't getting to me yet, but I feel like it's soo jokes compared to my other two exams. Well french is and was the hardest out of my three exams, so since that's done and over with, life is chillz for the rest of the week.
I'm excited cuz retreat is in one week! Spending quality time with God and friends and the outdoors, and no homework to worry about, paradise. Ahh. Excited :D
Okay going to bed now. Feel like sleeping early tonight. Toodles!
Anyway, felly was soo fun today. Spent some quality time with my cousin, and we just gelled so well together (: Didn't get too too much studying done, but at least I got time to finish all the retreat stuff and pull out the cheques. I'm no longer carrying loads of money of me. Thank goodness. So scared I would lose it and stuff.
Newcomer's introduction was interesting today. Name, grade, school, and make a slug sound. Haha my cousin's slug sound + the expression on her face = picture perfect moment. Except no camera on hand. It was hilarious though. Sluggsss for lifee <3
I'm not really worried about my math exam on Monday. I don't know if I'm actually not worried or if the pressure isn't getting to me yet, but I feel like it's soo jokes compared to my other two exams. Well french is and was the hardest out of my three exams, so since that's done and over with, life is chillz for the rest of the week.
I'm excited cuz retreat is in one week! Spending quality time with God and friends and the outdoors, and no homework to worry about, paradise. Ahh. Excited :D
Okay going to bed now. Feel like sleeping early tonight. Toodles!
01.27.12
God has been very very good to be today. No jokes.
Started off with my English exam in the morning. Went pretty well overall, and thank goodness the stickies in my book that I had marked off applied to the passage given to us as well. I would've freaked if it hadn't. So yaay for that. And yay also cuz I got my final summative mark for English back too, and I did really well on that. God is good.
Lunch was good too. Chilling with friends and just talking and stuff was fun.
Went back to school in the afternoon to help out with AY Dance auditions as a demonstrator. Funny how while demonstrating, I accidentally messed up one of the jumps, and I screwed up some of the kiddies. But that's okay, one exercise out of many in the audition can't hurt. I wasn't extremely impressed by any of the kids auditioning, but some seemed decent. I look forward to seeing who got in for AY Dance next year. Shall be interesting.
I'm looking forward to fellowship tonight at church. I was able to finish the math that's due tomorrow for tutor over lunch today, so I don't have to do that tonight. Thanks goodness. I'm a little sick of studying for so many exams. 2/3 done though, so 1 left, which isn't bad. I wish it wasn't worth 30% and was only worth 15%, but oh well, just gotta let life be. Anyway, I'm looking forward to KNA at church tonight because:
1) I get to see my cousin!
2) I get to see other friends
3) I get to spend time with God.
4) I get to jam with my retreat worship team
^ That altogether should come together as a really fun yet productive evening. Excited again :D
Don't have much more to say except that I'm very very thankful for all that God has blessed me with today. He truly does provide, and knowing him has definitely made these past few years of life so much better.
Started off with my English exam in the morning. Went pretty well overall, and thank goodness the stickies in my book that I had marked off applied to the passage given to us as well. I would've freaked if it hadn't. So yaay for that. And yay also cuz I got my final summative mark for English back too, and I did really well on that. God is good.
Lunch was good too. Chilling with friends and just talking and stuff was fun.
Went back to school in the afternoon to help out with AY Dance auditions as a demonstrator. Funny how while demonstrating, I accidentally messed up one of the jumps, and I screwed up some of the kiddies. But that's okay, one exercise out of many in the audition can't hurt. I wasn't extremely impressed by any of the kids auditioning, but some seemed decent. I look forward to seeing who got in for AY Dance next year. Shall be interesting.
I'm looking forward to fellowship tonight at church. I was able to finish the math that's due tomorrow for tutor over lunch today, so I don't have to do that tonight. Thanks goodness. I'm a little sick of studying for so many exams. 2/3 done though, so 1 left, which isn't bad. I wish it wasn't worth 30% and was only worth 15%, but oh well, just gotta let life be. Anyway, I'm looking forward to KNA at church tonight because:
1) I get to see my cousin!
2) I get to see other friends
3) I get to spend time with God.
4) I get to jam with my retreat worship team
^ That altogether should come together as a really fun yet productive evening. Excited again :D
Don't have much more to say except that I'm very very thankful for all that God has blessed me with today. He truly does provide, and knowing him has definitely made these past few years of life so much better.
1.26.2012
01.26.12
Morning!
I'm glad I got to sleep in a bit today. I feel so much more energized than I normally do when I wake at 8am, which is a great thing because I have an exam later on in the day.
I'm still studying for my French exam at the moment, but I'm starting to feel more and more confident about it. I've been calculating the minimum mark I'd need to get on my exam to keep my average at an 80, and really, I don't need a high mark on the exam. Even decided to calculate what would happen if I passed the exam with a 50. Again, not a big impact to my current mark. That said though, I realize I shouldn't be going into the exam with that kind of a mentality, because it'll only destine me for failure. If I know my minimum, why can't I reach for more? Reach for my maximum? Believe more in myself and have more faith in God?
I think that's some food for thought for today especially, but also for the rest of my upcoming exams. Reaching for my maximum, and giving it my all, just as God did.
Blogging does help express my emotions. So much. It's like the second best thing next to talking to God personally. Amazing huh?
Anyway, back to studying. This time, with the right mentality. Believe in yourself, and you can do it too!
Toodles.
I'm glad I got to sleep in a bit today. I feel so much more energized than I normally do when I wake at 8am, which is a great thing because I have an exam later on in the day.
I'm still studying for my French exam at the moment, but I'm starting to feel more and more confident about it. I've been calculating the minimum mark I'd need to get on my exam to keep my average at an 80, and really, I don't need a high mark on the exam. Even decided to calculate what would happen if I passed the exam with a 50. Again, not a big impact to my current mark. That said though, I realize I shouldn't be going into the exam with that kind of a mentality, because it'll only destine me for failure. If I know my minimum, why can't I reach for more? Reach for my maximum? Believe more in myself and have more faith in God?
I think that's some food for thought for today especially, but also for the rest of my upcoming exams. Reaching for my maximum, and giving it my all, just as God did.
Blogging does help express my emotions. So much. It's like the second best thing next to talking to God personally. Amazing huh?
Anyway, back to studying. This time, with the right mentality. Believe in yourself, and you can do it too!
Toodles.
01.25.12
Taking a shot at blogging because I don't feel like Tumblr adequately expresses how I feel each day, and tweeting is a pain. And FB is too public. So blogger, here I am.
About 12 hours till my first exam of grade 11. Yikes.
No matter how much studying I've done for the exam tomorrow, I feel like I still don't know all the material, and that I'm not fully ready. Like, there's such so much content to cover, I don't even know where to start reviewing. I've already looked over everything and rewritten my notes once. Halfway through the review package. Looking at my notes in its entirety for the second time now. I've never been this dedicated in studying for an exam. I don't think it's working too too well though. Blarggghh.
I'm glad I went to the school fellowship after school today. I really needed that time to be spent with God and just to meditate on all the things I have and haven't been doing this week. It was good to be able to spend time with others and pray for my fellow brothers and sisters too. I guess it's just the whole sense of community and everything that brought us together. PTL for that.
I'm still super worried for tomorrow, but I guess I'll just have to let tomorrow worry about itself. I keep telling others (and myself too) to just do your best and leave the rest to God. So much easier said than done though. Though I'm trying. And trying pretty hard too.
Enough writing for now. Better go get some sleep so I can finish my reviewing tomorrow morning. So much to do, so little time.
God Bless you if you're reading this. Nights!
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